lilgymnast's Journal

Well I know not many people read my journals but i just wanna put this out there just for my own sanity. I think i can honestly say i'm recovered. It has been a couple months since the last time i purged and i dont' even get the earge to anymore. After years of being bulemic i feel FREE. My Fiance is my savior and i could not be where i am today without him. Gosh my energy is up, i'm happier (even when i'm on my period) haha and i just love life right now. My fiance compliments me everyday and tells me how proud he is. We are taking baby steps to eating normal so i dont feel guilty and want to do sometihgn stupid. He wont let me eat too much or junk food just yet. Because he knows if i eat to much i'll feel guilty. I currently eat 3 meals a day and about 3 snacks. My next step is to graduate to bread. I LOVE BREAD and i have missed it soo much for so many years. Well i miss keeping it down cause i ate it a lot. I'm not sure i'm ready for that yet but it's coming. My fiance goes on a walk/run with me everyday and we take our three dogs  THEY LOVE IT.. i think i'm the favorite now haha. I honestly dont even know how to type how much better my life is. I have gained weight but i'm not checking the scale anymore and i'm excepting it. I am about 120lbs now.. that's from about 95lbs and i'm actually comfortable with my weight. I dont' think i look fat, i think i look fit. It's great and i get compliments on how i look verses i can see your bones.  GOSH I'M SOOOO HAPPY i wish you could all see me right now.

I know it's a long road and it's not easy, but YOU CAN DO IT.. i want everyone to know that it's doable. Your life will be so much better. Now i look forward to my meals and enjoying food for a change. Well i think i'm done babbling. I'm going to go jump on my tramp now hehehe love you all and dont ever give up!!!!