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Yesterday was a better day...Made myself get up and do a few things..My oldest son called and said he was coming into town to take me to dinner since he missed my birthday! So he , his wife and my middle son went to Red Lobster...I had steak and lobster again..My favorite thing!! He also gave me money for my birthday and I am putting it towards my tour trip in May. It is raining,cold and gray out today..I hate days like this...It looks like we are going to have several of thoses the next few days..but it is warming up next week to near 70 degrees...Crazy Alabama weather...22 one day 70 the next!..I am trying to cut down on my sleeping pills...I want to try and get back to as normal as I can..( not sure I was ever really normal:)..ONe day I'm ok and the next sooo sad...This new path is so scary...I look at Wison (my dodge ball) and he just smiles :) I think he know someday I will make it on this path God has placed me on~~~~~~~~~:)
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sometimes I feel this new path is just plain crappy. I feel the same God must have a reason for us to make this journey. Where are you going in May...
sherryann
Hi Glenda..I hope you had a really nice time. Family is an important support for me too. They need to see us ok once in awhile as their fear is not to lose the other parent. I think you said it right....You MADE yourself get up and do something. The big change in our lives(I find) is that there is very little to look forward and fear in planning ahead because there is nobody to share it with.I have 5 weeks vacation and use to be soooo excited about making getaway plans. Now there is nothing to get away from and no one to go with. It is such a shock to us and our bodies. I try to stop myself from thinking apast a day at a time. I took off my watch after my sweetheart was gone about 8 months since time had no meaning. I still have not put it back on. I think when I do it will mean I have moved someplace else in this journey. All a mystery huh? I send you hugs and hope.
helenc24
What kind of a tour are you going on in May? At least you haver something to look forward to. I still have not left my house and feel awful. This lonliness is overwhelming...Take care, Julia
jmk1973
Nice you could spend time with family...it's always encouraging....this is a journey that you are on and some days will be a little down and others will be up....just like a road...sometimes straight sometimes bumpy....if you need a listening ear I'm here.....:) Linda
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