lostmominFL’s Profile

About Me

Married to a wonderful man named Tom, with two children that he adopted (my first husband passed away). Our 15 year old daughter suffers from Schizo-affective disorder with psychotic features and is currently in a last resort treatment program. I am self-employed and in the top 1% of Mary Kay Cosmetics (yes, I drive a pink cadillac - smile). I thank God for this business as it provides the freedom for me to do what I need to do for our daughter. We are lost with what steps to take next !!! if any !!! I am the mother of a gorgeous 15 year girl that suffers from Schizo-affective disorder with psychotic features. The onset of her illness was just before her 3rd birthday, when she tried to kill herself for the first time. Her father suffered from the same illness and took his life 8 years ago... It's been a 12 year all out war, to get her the treatment that she needs, with the right providers. In and out of various facilities until the funding ran out. Now we are running out of programs and she CANNOT come home with us any longer. She becomes very violent and the last time she was home, beat me unconscious and I ended up needing back surgery and hospitalization. The program that she is in right now (the only one left) is in the middle of the ghetto but a self-contained community. They take day trips to the pool (in the ghetto) and now she is latching onto the young boys that she meets there; which causes her to run away and make poor impulsive choices that actually put her in danger. We have tried to talk to the director about giving these girls the message that they DESERVE better than the ghetto, but they say it's too convenient to the program... just down the street.... whatever ! They have just lost their grant money so now we are facing $2, 700. a month out of our pocket. The state tells us that we are the only family they know of with a teen with this illness that hasn't given up custody to the state. We are dedicated to this child but now we have NO influence or say so in her treatment; with no other choices of programs. Now, our daughter is pulling away from us as the ghetto boys are telling her that we don't love her or we would be happy for her to be with them....UGH ! What do we do ? Do I just pay the bill and pray for her; letting go of it all ???? or do I continue fighting a no winning battle ? We're tired, we're sad, confused, angry and at a loss of what to do. I will make more calls today.... and just get through today. Please God, help us and this glorious child of yours.

Interests

Travel, time with my son and my husband, vocally performing, church ministries, girlfriend time and my business gives me joy !