taram1980's Journal

Well it's Friday and I like Fridays because it means I can spend the weekend with my husband!    Tomorrow we are going to my cousin's birthday party.  This will be the first time I have seen my family (aunts, uncles, cousins) since the miscarriage.  My family has been great. They have been sending me cards and calling my mom to check in, they knew I really didn't feel like talking.  I want to see everyone but I am dreading it at the same time.  I know they mean well but I don't want to be bombarded (is that a word?) with "I'm sorrys".  I want to keep my composure and not get upset.  I am also sick of hearing that we can try again and we're young and healthy and there is plenty of time.  I know those words are meant to bring comfort but I don't want to hear it.  So hopefully all will go well.  One of my friends is in from Jersey and I am supposed to go "out" tomorrow night.  So tomorrow is a big day for me.  Either I will be distracted from my current situation or it will blow up in my face and I'll have a breakdown.  I am going to try and approach it in a positive way though.