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Journal Entry for June 19, 2007 Mood

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

I just feel numb this morning. I can't believe it is only Tuesday. I feel like it is going to be such a long, lonely summer. I'm not sure if it's a good thing that I have the summer off. Maybe if I was working I wouldn't think about the miscarriage so much. I long for the weekend when my husband is home with me all day. It just seems like his world is back to normal. I know he is deeply saddened by our loss but he is more concerned about my physical and emotional state of being right now. I am still experiencing light bleeding, so every time I go to the bathroom I am just reminded over and over again that I am empty.

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Time has a way of healing, I know u have probably heard that a million times already. Things will get easier although u never forget your little one. Just give it some time, everything is still so fresh..I'm sorry u have to spend some of your days alone. The bleeding should end soon. I know its hard to have a constant reminder of things. Its hard when u feel like your whole world has stopped and everyone and everything is still moving as if nothing happened. Keep your head up sweety your doing so good!! I'm here if u need to talk ((hugs))

needhope
Hello. I know how you feel. I have been off since 5/29 and will not go back until next month. My husband went back to work last week and everyone I know is at work. I am pretty lonely but trying to keep busy with projects I have created. Today I will go to some consignment shops looking for furniture to redo....never done that before but watch enough of HGTV and it makes you feel you can do anything. LOL! The reminders are the hardest thing. I wish you well today and I am here all day if you want to talk. Take care. Nellie-

BraydensMom
Wow, I feel the same exact way, numb and empty. I am so sorry for you, I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better. Please if there is anything I can do, just let me know. If you ever need to talk I am always here. Take care.

Jessa21
It will never go away, but will get better as time goes on. Know that you have a friend here. Take care and big hugs.

joyce19974
Take time for yourself during your time off. Going back to work did help me to have something else occupying my mind but it also hit harder some days when I was having a bad day because I felt like I had to hold it all in. I too spent my time off of work finding things to keep me busy as BraydensMom did. I put a lot of work into gardening and having flowers all around me, also making mementos, journal entries, searching for perfect items for memorials, and what not so I did not forget Jai and the experience of being pregnant with her. I keep telling myself that that was all I had but at least I had that. Hang in there!

LuvUJai