erewon's Journal

 The first Father's Day without my dad-- remembering he spent 5 mos in hospice, and I knew, when he left there, I wouldn't see him again.  I miss his wisdom, his jokes-- he died 5/17/07.  The tears have been in my eyes for the past 6 mos,  I saw what was coming.  Talking to my sister and brother in law helps- they were with him everyday.  They live in FL, I am in CA.  I spent a week with dad, but I had to return to CA.  I would call him everyday.  But it is hard to watch someone be so sick , so long, and be aware of these changes.  But Father's Day merely pulls open the wound.  It will take time, but I still wish it was a bad dream.  Mom died 3 yrs ago, my husband travels a lot.  A good friend told me about Daily Strength, so I will try to rebuild here.