Evanzzzeee's Journal

Well I guess I have written one of these for a while, and I really need to write one at the moment. So much is going through my head...

I saw one of my ex-boyfriends for the day on Thursday, and it made me see that me and him had so much more together then the guy I'm with at the moment. But I guess me and my ex will never happen again, so I stuffed that one up.

Also I was speaking to 2 of my old guy mates yesterday, and I ended up agreeing to sleep with them if they kept some stuff about my past a secret. FFS. I'm an idiot.

I got blamed for my most recent ex's death again by his best mate too, his got a tattoo in his memory and that made me feel really guilty.

And to top it all off, one of my mates killed himself yesterday.

What the hell? I really hate life at the moment, and I know I proberly feel like this alot but I actually can't take it anymore. Life is full of so much sh*t and I can't see the point. Everytime I get over something, something happens just to bring me back down.

I guess this might be my last blog...