Journal Entry for August 19, 2008
August 19, 2008 1:00pm
haven't cut since that night, which is amazing because my computer wasn't working & i was completely frustrated. i got it fixed yesterday …
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About Me
31; in the middle of a divorce; SI; schizo-affective disorder; bi-polar; anxiety. on mental health disability; looking for support & new friends.
Interests
music, reading, writing, trying to teach myself new things, movies.
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Today
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ange1ik.fruitcake updated their status 3:47pm
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ange1ik.fruitcake wrote a discussion post in the Diets & Weight Maintenance support group: anyone on weight watchers? 3:09pm
is anyone here on weight watchers? i started today. i'm very overweight & am hoping to get back down…
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ange1ik.fruitcake joined the Diets & Weight Maintenance support group 2:57pm
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ange1ik.fruitcake gave joankmli a Hug 2:53pm
thanks!…
Yesterday
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ange1ik.fruitcake gave crash873 a Hug 9:37pm
hey. sorry to see you were feeling so bad while i couldn't get on here to cheer you up! hope that you're…
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Journal Entry for August 13, 2008
August 13, 2008 12:23pm
cut myself last night in a few different areas - wrist, hand & thigh. i was hoping for blood, but the razor was too dull. instead, just …
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Journal Entry for August 9, 2008
August 9, 2008 12:50pm
scratched myself 3 times with a dull razor two nights ago. just got tired of fighting it. didn't cut deep. in fact, they're barely …
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Journal Entry for July 19, 2008
July 19, 2008 1:30pm
didn't cut the other day. didn't use the paint pen either. just went to bed early. same last night because i'd had a rollercoaster …
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Journal Entry for July 17, 2008
July 17, 2008 8:42pm
took out a new safety pin tonight & tried to dig into my arm with it. fortunately, it was dull & only made a pink line on my bicep - …
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
i can't remember a time when i didn't do little things to hurt myself in times of crisis, but it escalated when the paranoid schizophrenia hit & my husband left. i've quit numerous times over the years, but it always comes back.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Red Marker Working / Worked
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- the only problem is the pain goes away too quickly.
- S.A.F.E. (Self-Abuse Finally Ends) Working / Worked
- i use their book sometimes. i don't agree with the entire program, but parts of it work for me.
- Seroquel Working / Worked
- for the most part it takes care of my psychotic symptoms, but doesn't take care of the bipolar like it should.
- Talking Working / Worked
- i go to therapy and also speak with people here who know what i'm going through.
Close Schizophrenia
i deal with paranoia, auditory & visual hallucinations, especially when i'm under stress.
Treatments
Open Sexual Abuse
i received an obscene phone call at the age of 5 or 6 asking me all kinds of sickening questions, and then as a teenager, i was sexually harassed by 2 male students and a male teacher throughout high school.
Open Coming Out
currently in the process of coming out as bi to my family & friends.
Open Bisexuality
been fighting with this for years. finally coming out as bi to friends & family.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I've been separated for 6 years & am trying to finally get the divorce paperwork done with. still carry a lot of anger/hurt/trust issues.
Treatments
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Treatments
- Counting Calories Not Working
- Slim-Fast Somewhat Helpful
- Weight Watchers Too Soon to Tell
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