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August 20, 2008 4:12am
I am getting so confused with all the grief and depression I am anxious what will happen next. I have had some nightmares about suicide. …
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Suzannaho1’s Profile
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Suzannaho1
is feeling OK
feeling much better but fears stop me trusting life to stay happy
About Me
I trained to be a Chidcare assistant at TAFE. I like doing different crafts. My mum (and my nephew) live here too as she had Cancer last year but is O.K. at the moment. I did a recovery course cause I was sexually abused as a child (Incest)....... but didn't get all that much out of course. I had a car accident when I was 18 and almost lost my leg to infection. I was top dancer in our Ballroom Dance studio at the time so I was so terrified and had nightmares all the time for years after. Marriage seemed good but found him not too careing when our first baby (Rosemary Anne)died at birth.I had 2 miscarriages after her as well so I thought I would never get a baby to care for. We had our 4 beautiful daughters after that.They were my joy for so long and HE felt negleted so he left just before 18 year aniversary. Life is better since he left but never seems to stay really good(without depression for very long) so I do the best I can. I need to get a job now but dont have the confidence in myself and dont feel well enough really.
Interests
I am an artist I love all art & craft activities usually I have a new puppy called Leonardo or LEO is easier to say. I love to sing as part of the worship team at church Ilove growing my own vegetables and have 5 big gardens to plant as well as fruit trees. I need to dig most of my garden again and plant more vegies or we will be hungry. Ha!Ha! Fresh is best though and NO sprays(organic) is so much better.
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Thank God I am still here
August 8, 2008 6:12am
Hello to all my friends who come to visit me on this site.
I am starting to feel a bit better now but still in shock part of the time about the death …
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Trials make us stronger?
July 21, 2008 6:16am
i should be like superwomen.
get what i mean ?
i am feeing the strain of all the latest stress and stain.
but the spiritual growth …
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The Pain is TOOOOOO MUCH
July 11, 2008 5:54am
I AM FEELING REALLY ROTTEN TODAY.
PARTLY DUE TO BEING SICK WITH SOME WEIRD VIRUS
BUT MOSTLY TRYING TO FIGHT OFF THE DEPRESSION
EVERYTHING JUST SEEMS TO …
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Susannah is slowly mending
July 2, 2008 8:10am
Hello my dear friends who care enough to check in here sometimes to see how life is treating their online friends.
I think I am going to come out of …
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Checking in on you my friend, your on my mind this morning,.. Hope you like your Present... :-) Someone told me you were looking for this,... :0)
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I wish you joy, I wish you all the pleasures The world has to give, Pleasures of a pure heart And soul I wish you the exhilaration Felt atop mountain peaks, I wish you the cool comfort Of a shaggy, shady oak I wish you all the passion That a love for the ages, A nurturing, spontaneous love, Can generously give I wish you never know loneliness, Never know pain and sorrow To excess or extremes, And if you do, It gives birth to future joys I wish you good health Of mind, body and spirit, That your journey through life Be a peaceful one I wish you friendship The kind that supports you, Sustains you, And makes you stop to smile I wish you love and friendship, Comfort and peace, I wish you joy! BLESSINGS TO YOU! Love, Teresa
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thanks and same to you
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I’m With You
wow you are sounding to much like me its scarey..Im in that crap now what is life going to bring.
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THANKS FOR THE (6 REASONS NOT TO MESS WITH CHILDREN)THATS JUST WHAT I NEEDED WAS A GOOD LAUGH,IT REALDY MAKE MY DAY(READ MY JOURNAL TO KNOW THE DOUBLE HELL I BEEN HAVING.) THANKS AGAIN FOR A GREAT LAUGH.HOPE YOUR DOING GREAT,TAKE CARE LOTS OF LOVE AND HUGSSSS JACKIE
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was abused for years and then blocked it out so now faced with flashbacks and nightmares. lack interest in life at present.
Treatments
- Effexor Too Soon to Tell
- Have some side effects that make sleeping difficult. Head sweats are crazy too.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Didnt help me and made me sick
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Somewhat helpful to know I am not alone with this but struggling to be happy with myself
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- Gave some relief but even on 300mg dose I am still feeling depressed and my specialist wants to put me onto something else.
Close Sexual Abuse
Well can I get through all the emotional walls in one piece and be able to tell the horror story that was my childhood? I doubt it but I'll give a brief note for you to judge for yourself. I remember the first time I was abused so clearly it could have been yesterday not 25 years ago. I only have to hear 'sexual abuse ' mentioned and it instantly replays in my head like a dvd plays on t.v.My mum was in hospital, dying or I thought so, and my Dad came to my room to teach me all about sex. Horible
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Difficult to speak out about what happened to me. Feelings are hard for me to talk about.
Open Migraine Headaches
The Effexor that my doctor put me on for depression has caused a lot of migraines. I felt like I was never going to be free of them again. It has eased off the last 2 days but I am concerned they will return as they doubled my meds again on Friday.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Too Soon to Tell
- Chocolate sometimes gives me pain later
- Magnesium Considering
- Have had trouble with low Magnesium causing other health issues so may be the cause with this too
Open Single Parenting
I have been raising my daughters on my own for 10 years now but still find some parts of life a huge struggle. They are fairly independant now they are older and I get so lonely at times. I have mum living here now so that does help a bit. trying to get servicemen that are honest and not trying to rip women off is difficult in this area.I get very depressed sometimes and think life is not worth living but .... the thought of my daughters keeps me going, My friends at church seem to hate it.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendMY friend Joanne(age 25)killed herself last week.She hung herself and I am Havin trouble coping with the loss.
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- Was shocked and cried when told she was dead. Cried a lot that night.
- DailyStrength Somewhat Helpful
- Messaged friends on DS to talk about my friend hanging herself. Seems to help to get it out of my head for awhile.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Everyone at my church is praying too. It calms me to pray and also know that others are praying.
- Scrapbooking Considering
- Thinking it may help get past the grief to do cardmaking or scrapbooking.
- Talking Not Working
- I cant say the right things when trying to talk to others about upsetting things.
Open Caregivers
I have had my nephew in my care full time for 5 years now (he is 15 almost16 years of age) Now I am also carer for my mum who has had breast cancer.It is testing my health to the limit to still have my nephew but mum is great to have here.
Open Bipolar Disorder
Hello u know me from depression community
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Hated it!
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
When I go into deep depression I often think about suicide. Cutting the wrists or lots of pills.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Hard to talk to strangers about the incest and other rejection in my life
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I write when I reach the point when I cant speak to them
Open Stillbirth
My first child, daughter Rosemary Anne, was still born. We were not told what they found in the tests they did and really didn't think it made much difference to us anyway. Our daughter was dead and we could not get her back by asking more questions or making trouble for the staff. I have never really recovered from the shock of losing her. I have 4 other daughters and they are all beautiful but..... I miss my first darling little one. When depression gets bad I want to go be with her.
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