suewongi's Journal

my name is susan i am married with a 10 year old daughter.i have suffered with temporal lobe epilepsy for 24 years now.12 years ago our first daughter died at 11 weeks old which i think is allways hard to get over. we now have emma our 10 year old.but in the last 6 years i have had 2 miscarriages so i have just given up on hope of having any more children and being gratefull for the lovely daughter i have.i havent been very well for the past few years with my seizures but i just get on with life as i have a great husband and i have a caring aunty my inlaws are good to me.but as for my parents they have never been there for me my grandma brought me up but she as been died for a good few years.as  soon as my parents found out i had epilepsy at the age of 16 they had nothing more to do with me my mum just told everyone she was ashed of me having epilepsy.but it my daughter i feel for because she as only seen my mum and dad once since shes been born but my daughter as got a lot of love.but at the moment i am waiting for a letter to see a surgeon to see if he can help me with my epilepsy as nothing else as worked i have had that many tablets i have forgotten half of the names.but waing to see a surgeon is nervous as the last month or so i have been crying for the least little thing i think its just me being nervous because it makes you feel so silly crying for nothing thats if anyone knows what i mean.