Journal Entry for July 22, 2008
July 22, 2008 8:30pm
Progress
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Laera’s Profile
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Laera
is feeling OK
About Me
I am a Sophomore in highschool. I try REALLY hard to get good grades, but sometimes it gets tiring. I'm not very popular, but I have a few good friends. My friends think that I'm a good person to come to for advise, and I always try to give my best advise, but I'm not sure if I'm the best person to come to. I've now been a member of this site for 10 mo., and I'd like to say thank you. Because of the people on this site, I'm starting to heal.
Interests
anime, singing, drawing, poetry, reading, writing, chemistry, babysitting
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Recent Activity
Tuesday
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Laera wrote a journal entry updating 2 goals 8:30pm
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Laera changed their mood to OK 8:25pm
January 11
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Laera turned 16 12:00am
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Journal
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A little bit in shock
May 8, 2008 11:11pm
My best friend's nephew died on the night of our play, and she couldn't be in the performance. It was the 3rd time I've ever seen …
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A little bit in shock
May 8, 2008 11:11pm
My best friend's nephew died on the night of our play, and she couldn't be in the performance. It was the 3rd time I've ever seen …
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Photos
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Stuttering
I spoke perfectly up until I was 3 years old. Then I began to stutter severly, It took me about 10-20 seconds per word. I was usually blissfully unaware, but there were times I got looks and was called names that told me I was different. I began going to speech therapy, until it seemed it was under control, and was too much money. Then when I began middleschool, I started having trouble again. My stuttering takes days off, but it comes back worse and worse everytime. I'm back where I began.
Treatments
- Speech Therapy Not Working
- I went to speech therapy for 6 years, then it became too spendy to continue therapy. I was doing better speechwise up until middleschool.
Close Depression - Teen
I have a mix between chronic and environmental depression. I've gone through a lot in my life, and sometimes it is almost too much to bear.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Prozac Not Working
- No medications seemed to help me.
- Remeron Not Working
- No medications seemed to help me.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I kind of enjoyed this. I got to write, and no one was telling me what to write. Most of it had nothing to do with me, but it did help somewhat.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Everyone thinks my dad is a great, wonderful caring guy, and that my mom is lucky to be his wife. And he can be like that on a few occations. But he's usually drinking, yelling, and throwing things. He gets physically violent with my little brothers from time to time. I do my best to protect them, but they're to naive and young to understan that what he is doing is wrong.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Considering
- I'm not really sure how I felt about this. It almost seemed like they didn't believe me.
Open Family Issues
It's the pretty much the same foor the abuse category.
Open Financial Challenges
Even though I'm just a teen, I've always felt the need to support my family. My mom feels really bad taking my money, but I know that she needs it for food, rent, medicine, etc. I know that we're pretty far in debt, and it sometimes makes me worry that we'll lose everything again.
Open Self-Injury
I used to hurt myself whenever things got too stressful. I have found other ways of coping, but somtimes the blade looks SO tempting, but I don't want to. Sometimes I don't even realize that I am doing it.
Treatments
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- Talking Working / Worked
- It's starting to work, but it's so embarassing.
Open Shyness
I am very shy. Sometimess it is to the point that I feel I can't breathe and have to leave the room. There are only 2 people in the whole world that I can comfortably talk to for more than 5 mins (not counting over the internet). I get very nervous when I have to be around a lot of people, and usually stay silent in the corner at parties.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Too Soon to Tell
- Singing Working / Worked
- I sometimes sing in a bathroom to calm myself down so I can keep interacting.
Open Sexual Abuse
It's not that I'm being felt up day to day or anything, but guys are always staring at me and making the crudest comments. People sometimes touch me when I say "no", but i I think it's more harrasment than abuse.
Treatments
Open Insomnia
It's been so long since I've had a good night's sleep. I have trouble falling asleep, and I have violent nightmares that wake me up several times every night.
Treatments
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- Lavender Working / Worked
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- Melatonin Working / Worked
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Snapshot
Laera hasn’t been active on the site in a while. Why not give Laera a hug?
