Jazsosick's Journal

*****Goal Update***** 

So I contacted my old job finally came clean with them about the hep c and the interferon treatment. and it looks like they WANT ME BACK!! I am having lunch with the CFO on tuesday to talk about coming back.  so HUGE STEP on getting my life back!  one step at a time ;o)

Feeling Better. Went to the doctor yesterday and broke down an told her all that i have been going through and she was amazing in  making me feel better and then prescribing me an anti depressant I can actually afford ! My Doc said that i have to stop trying to get off medication that i obviously need with my depression history. I confessed to her that the reason i always try to stop takin anti depressents and do it on my own is because i have been told by people close to me that I am a weaker person because i have to take an Anti Depressant to maintain.

Well My doc was so pissed when i told her that an immediately told me that unless those people understand bio chemistry, physiology and psychiatry that I have no business listening to them. She broke it down an explained to me that it was simply that i required more seratonin in my brain and that it was unavoidable as it was genetic through my father. And that i should be happy that a pill can fix that problem and it works for me as she said some people nothing works for them. 

Im feeling better already that i can accept the fact that i do need that medication in order to function properly and there is no shame or weakness in that. 

Well i got to get ready for church HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE