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Sometimes I wonder just whether or not I am a good person.
In the past month or so, I have spent little time online because of complications here in my little world. A dear (I thought) friend of mine asked me one afternoon to go to dinner and I refused; not meanly, because I had no money and she had been complaining about being broke, so didn't want to be a financial burden to her already stressed self. Truth be told, I suppose, I was not feeling very loving toward her as she had been kyping and snotty toward me recently and I felt uncharitable. She pressed for a reason why I wouldn't go (harping that I HAD to give her a reason) and I lost it and yelled back that I didn't have to give her a reason for any G..D...m thing I did or didn't do.
Oops!!!!
She came back to my apartment after going to dinner, asked for her house key back and told me to unplug from the net, she was cutting me off from the wireless. And she did exactly that. For the next two weeks, everyone here tried to convince me that I should suck it up, make nice and just go on.
F..K them!!!!!
I was angry, hurt and indignant. Well, after three weeks of listening to the BS, I caved and spoke to her. But I do not visit for long--never in her apartment, I am polite but reserved and still angry, hurt and indignant----why was I the one who had to give in??? Why do I have to be the peacemaker?? Sometimes I want to be---other times I want to be angry, yell and scream and say mean things!!!!
Okay.
The rant is over, but I sure would like to get some input here---y'all know me better even than the neighbors!!!!
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Mildred, the church gossip and self-appointed monitor of the church's
morals, kept sticking her nose into other people's business.
Several members did not approve of her activities, but feared her enough
to maintain their silence. She made a mistake, however, when she accused
George, a new church member, of being an alcoholic after she saw his old
pickup parked in front of the town's only bar one afternoon.
She emphatically told George (and several others) that everyone who saw it
parked there would know exactly what he was doing.
George, a man of few words, stared at her for a moment and then just
turned and walked away. He didn't explain, defend, or deny... He said
nothing. Later that evening, George quietly parked his pickup in front of
Mildred's house...
Walked home.. And left it there all night.
You Gotta love George...
Thank you darling caszy for keeping me smiling---I shall "Pay it Forward"..
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wow that is a good one,,love it,, thanks Cheryl I needed that love ya
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OOOOOOOOOO just luv it!!!!!
So glad to see ya sendin out lil chuckles again.
=) (((hugs))) Shell
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ha ha!
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LOL!
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you rock george!!!
OMG, I have never faced so much frustration and anger in my life!!! But I am back, and have I got some wonderful news for those who still come around.
I got the letter from the VA that verifies that my disability level has been raised and I will no be classified at 70% instead of 10%, making my pay increase effective on 1 September. I am thrilled to death. They said that it could take up to a year to receive my retro pay, but I don't think it will---max 3 months I am thinkiWooooHooooo, I am so glad to be here----no one really understands how out of touch I felt!!!!
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Praise the Lord!!!I am sooooooo happy for you. You deserve some happiness. Enjoy.
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Let the parties begin....OOH RAH...
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Oh hon that is just wonderful am so happy for you. And glad you are back!
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that is great news,,, so happy for you,,, hope you are getting lots of rest,,, tried to call,, been worried about you,, so glad you are back,,, God Bless you my friend,, I am here for you,,, love ya
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hey hey! your back and smiling to, what great news, have really missed you
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HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY HOORAY! *bounces up and down*
I'm sooooooooo happy for ya nana....oooooh YAAAAAAYYYY!
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YIPPPEEEE, YIPPPEEEE, YIPPPPEEE!!!!
Oh Nana this is grrrrrrrrrrrr8 news!!!!!
Perseverence does payoff.
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Woooooooooohoooooooooo Nana that is awesome newa and it will make a real difference...Love you loads
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there she is! and with GREAT news too....we sure have missed you and now you can truly breathe and have a shopping spree with no end!!!! We both knew that this would be coming to you, and early at that too.....I am soo happy for you, see all that waiting has paid (pun intended) has paid of!!! love ya
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Congratulations! Such wonderful news. I am so happy for you!
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THIS IS WHAT I LIKE TO READ!! CONGRATS!!!!!
I dont think that youshould had to cave in. Believe me when I am pissed off at someone they know it and one thing I am good at is standing my ground. I am also very good when pushed at telling the truth with no sugar coating. Im told I have the tact of a sledge hammer. All your neighbours are taking advantage of the fact that you are a gentle soul, who lives with her grandson and puts the needs of others ahead of her own feelings. nana I love you dearly and if you need some of my tact and strength I will wmail it too you and send you some in the post too...
Johnette
is there any way you could move to a nicer place and away from all the sh-- that keep upsetting you
cazsy
No wonder you ended up in the hospital. I agree, why should YOU be the peacemaker? Been in them shoes too...where does it leave YOUR feelings? Always biting your tongue and not being allowed to express yourself...that's a bunch of crap. You know Cheryl some people have trouble with the truth....and that is THEIR problem, NOT yours!! Hard habit to break I know, BUT you can break it little by little..and the sooner you start the better or you will be seeing that doc more!!! Johnette is right....they are taking advantage of you and as long as I have known you, that's all I hear. They have backbones and so do you.....you should not let others have ANY power over you whatsoever. I do know this...we all have a breaking point tho and yours is coming when enough will be enough. And I cannot wait for that day to come to you.....that burden that you carry will lessen and the image in the mirror will smile back at you from way deep inside.
I have been taught to be the peacemaker as well....and all it gave me was an ulcer and more grey hair. In therapy I learned that the ONLY reason I was doing it was that I wanted them to like me, to cover my own pain, and give out cause I was not getting any back. When we have childhoods like we do we learn destructive ways to cope....BUT we CAN change them. You have to believe in yourself and listen to that little voice...for that is the voice of your spirit and reasoning.....and in most cases she is always right.
I always say that learning a new way of living is like breaking in a new pair of shoes....we HAVE to get rid of those that we always wore, and wear the new ones knowing that they will be uncomfortable at first...BUT we do NEED them..
don't we???
I am always here for you and love you just as you are..........
barbra2
well lets see,,, you could poop in a bag, put it outside her door, start it on fire, knock on her door and when she stomps the fire out, she will take the rest of your shit back in her apartment and get it all over her carpet,,,lololololololol,,, then yell up the way,, that is the rest of my shit take it and like it lololololol,,, love ya my friend hope things get better soon,,,,
Jackie19467
There are lots of nasty people in this world. I'm so sorry that you seem to run into more than your share of them. YOU are not a bad person, you are GOOD and deserve good things. You will always be the peacemaker it's just in your nature.
lilje