Rebeka56's Journal

 WOW! What a goal, FINANCAL GOALS....

I'm bipolar and I have a big major problem with spending money, to the point of many arguments with hubby. When I worked my income was my own, but when I had to stop working that was the end of my extra income, that's been over 15 years ago. I just cannot stop spending money. If I have a penny in my pocket I'd have to spend it onto something before the days over. 

The end of seasonal sales/ store clearance's is so very difficult for me, mainly after Christmas. I love buying next years Christmas presents plus more. I cannot count all the hardship and grief I'm imposed onto my hubby shoulders by going behind his back spending household money for my wants more then needs on credit cards. As you see he controls all finances which really is a blessing for we would go bankrupt if it was left up to me. Many couples divorce over this delima, I've been so bless with and patient partner that loves me.

This year I want to really buckle down and be realistic concerning my needs not wants. To go to hubby without feeling guilty nor going behind his back buying things. Its best to be honest which is the best policy for when we lie it comes out in the long run anyway. By doing so makes me sick, very nervous, and I'm tried of making myself sick. I know this will be a battle it has been for years. Lets see if I can keep my promise to hubby and to face him when I need something. I also must trust God to supply all my needs, not worry about material things.

I really did not want to put a date on this goal for this goal is life long problem to deal with just like Diabetes, etc. But I can focus now my ups and downs, on how I have curved my desire to spend money and keep a journal to help me along with this.