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Thursday, July 24, 2008 | A Sad story

My dear friends,

I put up this picture because it is the field that my deer would feed in early in the morning before they came home to the back pines behind my house. I am feeling quite sad this morning as four of my five deer are gone. Even tho it isn't deer season, I heard alot of shooting last week and I am always fearful when I do and watch anxiously for the deer each morning. No signs of them for 4 days, and then Tuesday of this week, I saw one lone deer racing accross the field as if she were running from something. She crossed where they always would and I assumed she went to the back pines. The next morning I watched for her but never saw her. Then Wed evening I saw her just on the other side of that small ravine in the center of the picture just standing there looking around. After about 10 mins she laid down in the grass and after only a few minutes got up again. She did this several times looking around the whole time. It was nearly dusk when I saw her, and I watched until it was too dark to see. As most of you know, I started out with 15 when I first moved here, and never in all that time would you ever see one without the others. A month or so back I saw the two visiting males, so I know there were going to be babies soon. There's not a doubt in my mind that they are gone leaving the one behind. I know they were wild and not really mine, but they had become as much a part of my life as my other animals and I will miss them terribly.

My mother use to tell me all the time how I hated to see things change and that I shouldn't feel that way because it is a fact of life that everything changes in time. I thought about her telling me that when I realized the deer were gone. As with all the changes in my life I grieved over it. And as much as I do hate change, our whole lives are about things changing. Nothing stays the same my mother would always say. And for every change in my life that I didn't want I would hear her saying that. Even when she died which was the biggest change of all. I think about that alot. From the time we are born we live in constant change, but it's so gradual we are hardly aware of it until something monumental occurs. A child going to school for the first time, leaving home for the first time. Everyday we're a day older and closer to our own destiny. The seasons change, friends come and go, loved ones pass on. Maybe that's why I've always been afraid of change.....not that there haven't been good ones, but I seem to hold on to the way things are as a sense of security I suppose that all is well in my little world and it will just go on that way. It's hard to put into words. But it is true that nothing stays the same, and I guess that's why we gather our memories close for the precious thing they are, just as my deer are now...a preciious memory.

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Oh Dale......I am sorry your deer are gone. I know how much you looked forward to seeing them. Remember the peace and enjoyment you had while they were your friends. You are right everything changes through time......the joys the sorrows and the memories. Hugs, Deb.

bighearted1
Oh I remember your stories about your deer and how they would come in each day and how much you loved watching them So sorry to hear that they are no longer there. I do hope that another family will come and spend their lives there so that you can enjoy watching them. I wonder if your fear of change started with al the moves around the world that you had as a child. Sometimes things like that have an impact on us when we think that we are coping with it,

Hathani
I DESPISE HUNTERS! I MAKE NO BONES ABOUT IT.When I moved in here,there first day there were hunters here asking to hunt,I said no and said I would have them arrested.There is no reason for it and I don't go for the starving deer BS,I would be crying too Dale.This makes me cry to even hear your story.I have seen deer shot by some fat *ss hunter to damn lazy to track it and put it out of its suffering.This is not a subject I can be rational about.I took my kids once night in the summer to a large field at sunset to watch them only to have some *SSHOLE hunter jack one at the other end of the field in front of MY children.I went down there had it out with him,and reported him and he was arrested.I have to stop or I am going to really going to get on my soapbox.I am sorry there are so many ignorant f**king people still alive.I think these men should go hunt each other,as anyone can kill an innocent animal with a gun.Bit hero wahoo,hunt each each an clean up the gene pool.Ok love you I have to stop now.Deb

Deb115
If it's not deer season yet, call the fish and game wildlife officers. It's a felony I think to hunt out of season. They are the only law enforcement officers that do not have to have a warrent to enter your house to search for evidence. They are a law unto themselves. Any evidence they find and they will be on someone like white on rice. My parapro let one in her house to use the restroom and they saw a feather on her mantle from a bald eagle. Her children had found in on the ground while walking in the woods. The officer confiscated it and told her it was a felony and she could have been arrested. A feather. These people don't play - so yeah, I'ld call them. It might make you feel better. It's one to thing to hunt if your family is starving, but for sport - no. My own brother sets out food and then sits in a tree stand. I don't call that hunting, it's an ambush.

Slowmoving
my dearest Dale,
I am so sorry to hear about your deer, they are such beautiful creatures. I remember when I lived in England I would love to wander through the forest and watch the deer and squirrels and the pheasants at play.
sending loads of love and hugs your way,
love you,
linda butterfly.
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