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I just weighed myself today and I was 257 pounds. I can't believe how well the lap-band works. I eat small portions …
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I didn't want to say a lot about myself. But I had just given up after Mandi was killed. I gave up on me. My hair, appearance, clothing, make-up, and more was not important any longer. Ray (my son) asked me out to dinner with his club friends and I went. I looked around at the other Moms and girlfriends and I was embarassed at myself. I talked to him on the way home and He said he loves me no matter what. I went to my doctors office, stepped upon the scales and I was SHOCKED. I couldn't beleive that no one else was on the scales with me. I cried because I was so mad at myself. I go to the doctor maybe 1 time a year. My doctor was so happy to hear that i was ready to change my sorry made life and get back to a living life. We talked about lap-band surgery and since I have never had a surgery I was kinda scared. But I know if I didn't do something now I was going to die. I gave up on all drinkable liquids except for WATER on May 01,2008. I had to have a Cava vein filter (to help prevent a blood clot) put in on June 04,2008. (My Daddy died from a blood clot from surgery in August 2007) I had to be weighed and 30 pounds were already GONE. I thought I was going to flip out. So on my Band surgery day, (June 10, 2008) came and I had to weighed again, total of 35 pounds Gone. I did great at both surgeries. I wanted to join a gym but to costly. My friend, Linda bought me a tread mill and I have been walking a mile to a mile and a half a day. I'm not suppose to weigh myself until I go back to the doctor for my fill on (July 24,2008) I have cut my portions in half, continue with just drinking water. and walking. I am working hard to make myself to feel better about my self. Keep Praying for me. Thanks for all your support. You ALL mean a lot to me. Love, Shelia
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Oh shelia! I wish so much that you would have shared your burden with me.. as I would have added this to my prayers as well.
I actually have two friends ( the mom and grandmother) who is only 35, who had this exact procedure done in april. They said that it is very successful, and have very little pain.
You are determined and focused on making it to your goal! I know you will get there.
I know it is hard, to find good liquids.. but there are a lot of good soups and smoothies.. if you need ideas, just ask.
I can remember when the girls died, in 2007, I was 168 lbs at 5 foot 10. If you look through my pics now, I am 192 lbs. There are many, many , many days, when I stay in bed all day, and never get out of my pajamas. My hair is a holy mess, and I never even think of leaving the house.
This is just not me. I am queen of make-up. I love girly stuff.. perfumes, and shopping. But thinking about all the weight ive gained depresses me.
The one thing I have found that comforts and relaxes me, is doing some deep streches, and yoga.
There is a great program on Oxygen called Namaste on in the mornings here , its 6am! but not sure what time it would be there. Hbo has an entire channel dedicated to it as well.
I also really liked water arobics. It is very, very good for you, and low impact.
Just a side note-- My mom and I found that most insurance plans will cover the cost of your gym membership
because it is considered "prevenative health care", and will either pay up front , or reimburse you for the year.
They usually just require that you log that you are going about 3x a week.
Shapes total fittness and lifestyles have been great gyms for my mom and I..
I wish you all the support in the world and know you can do it! You are always, always in my prayers, and know that mandi would be so proud of her mamma for getting up and out there and giving life a go again!
But Ray is right.. We all would love you, no matter what! buts its how you feel about yourself that matters!
Love you lots !
LAura
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