wenjkauff's Journal

It has been quite a while since I have written in my journal.  My daily life seems to have become chaotic again.  It has been just over a year since I had my last stroke.  I am back to work full time, but in a different capacity than originally hired for.  The President of the company assured me that I would have a job no matter what and he did what he promised.

Since that time, I have had to deal with some infidelity issues with my husband.  Twice now I have caught him talking to strange women and they believed he was single, divorced, separated, or widowed.  The last one was only a few weeks ago and I packed up my daughter and myself and left.  The only problem was I had no where to go so I had to go back.  He truly doesn't understand what he has done to me.  I am doing much better, but I still have disabilities that will not improve.  I am wondering if the burden of an older wife who now has disabilities which limit my activity to some degree is more than he can handle.

My oldest daughter has been visiting this week from SC.  She hasn't been home since last year so I was so excited to spend time with her.  The only problem is she brought home 2 huge dogs that our cat doesn't like at all.  It has really put our whole house in an uproar and as much as I miss her, I will be glad when her dogs go.

I am positive most of the time, but it is very difficult at times.  There is a good chance that we may lose our house due to back property taxes because I was out last year.  After I finally went back to work, my husband was hurt in an accident at work and he was out for 2 more months.  We lost approximately $ 6,000 and no way to make it up.  It was difficult enough to keep our bills current, but our mortgage company won't even talk to us unless we are behind 90 days on our mortgage.  I really don't know how to get help to take care of the back taxes because we make more money than allotted to get assistance.

Well, now that I have shared my current state, I know that God is watching and will help get us through this crisis just like he has every other one we have faced in the last year.

I guess the good news is that I don't have a tumor.  The bad news is that I still have issues that are not explained or taken care of.  I guess we start at square one and review other options.  I am thankful that I don't have to deal with this but I do have to continue with figuring out what is going on.  I am glad God has seen to it that I don't have this problem.  As I find out what is going on, I will be reporting back because maybe some of the things I am experiencing the rest of you are and maybe I can help you with your own issues.  I do have Dystonia, diabetes, hypertension, and depression.  I am not convinced that the only way to handle the Dystonia is to have Botox injections.  I am looking for alternatives to stop the tremors and body spasms that occur almost continually.  Hope everyone has a good day.  If I can help anyone else, please let me know.