jadedjewel’s Profile

Open Sexual Abuse

I was sexually abused at 2 and raped at 12 by my mothers brothers.Only lately have i been coming to terms with it and actually talking.It is still extremely difficult as my partner of 2 years has left me and i ended up in prison over this whole thing.It ruined my life for the last 12 years.

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Not Working

can hardly connect to the emotion associated with the memories,feel like i will physically collapse each time we broach the subject and i get severely depressed for days

Marijuana Working / Worked

Open Bipolar Disorder

i have recently been diagnosed as having bipolar 1..had an extreme episode where i set my partner and our house on fire with petrol..ended up i jail painting crosses everywhere and converting the masses..unsuccessfully tried to hang myself...the drugs just dont cut it anymore...xx

Treatments

Tegretol Working / Worked

was really crazee at first..the side effects knocked me ...couldnt see properly and the fuckin tiredness!!! Its allsettling down know but was really up n go for the first 5 weeks...so tiring...they're increasing my dosage again n regularly checking my bloods..sometimes it feels like im on ecstacy !!!!!! hahaha

Zyprexa Working / Worked

zones me out a little but metaboliases qwikly as it reacts with the carbapazepime...helps me sleep

Open Parenting Big Kids (5-8)

I have two elder children..from a teenage relationship..they are extremely adorable and full of life..though sometimes it is hard as I just want to party..

Treatments

Education (School) Working / Worked

I refused to let myself full into the category of 'single mum' stigma.I strived to get my children into a decent school and educated myself along the way.

Open Single Parenting

not through choice...

Open Anger Management

i have serious anger issues

Treatments

Breathing Exercises Working / Worked

Marijuana Working / Worked

Open Pyromania

i set my bf on fire...

Treatments

Distancing Working / Worked

Marijuana Working / Worked

Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder

Have ptsd from being with my fathers children for 7 years in an extremely violent relationship.

Treatments

Art Working / Worked

i write poetry all my emotions belong in my books

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked

Music Working / Worked

takes me to a place where i am not

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

beeen doin this a while and it is helping to talk

Talking Working / Worked

Open Rape

At the age of 11-13 I was raped by my mums brother who is now deceased. It took a lot of years to even begin to think about what had happened let alone talk about it. Today it still is very hard to verbalise what happened as i loathe thinking of it. he ruined my life.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

is really slow n hard...i avoid talking a lot n have to be prompted which sets me in hysterics..

Rape Counseling Considering

tried to seek help thru a rape counsellor but they wouldnt see me so i had to wait almost a year to see a child sexual abuse counsellor.I had a sense of urgency to get it out but it passed n i get flashbacks all the time