Journal Entry for January 9, 2008
January 9, 2008 1:09am
flat tire , what an ordeal, boy was that thing stuck on
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Imstillstanding
is feeling OK
About Me
Hmmm, well I'm a single father of 3 kids, I used to be highly creative haven't been in a long time. Work in the public retail realm eventhough my training is for behind the scenes in business. I've held he same job now for about 8 years. Not under a doctors care. Tried it for 6 years. Pray alot. Am a bpII and have a.d.d (short term memory impairment kind). Worked in computers for 14 years and was a systems admin over 5 companies. Now I work developing peoples photos. Fight depression 90% of the time, fight hoplessness most of the time. See miracles all the time.
Interests
GOD, traveling, scottish things, landscape photography, writing, poetry, comedy, classical, rock, jazz, scifi esp. startrek(hey look at your cellphones, beam me up Scotty) Timberframe houses. 1700's American history, Supernatural, ceramics, medicine (homeopathy), sex
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Journal Entry for December 25, 2007
December 25, 2007 9:33pm
I hate christmas day, I hate it. I am alone. Kids are with x.
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Hey sweetie how are you??I`m pretty damn good..Drop me a line or two later ..Big Hugs to you my friend..
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BIG NHUGS !!!!!!!Hope all is well with you ...Drop me a line or two ..
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HOpe all is well with you ...Big hugs my friend..
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HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO YOU, FROM ME DEE X
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Hey swettie BIG HUGS to you my friend..Drop me a line or two to let me know how you are friend..
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Close Bipolar Disorder
well let me see, lost a child stillborn, dad was dying of cancer, wife an not understanding, systems admin of 5 companies lead to stress overload into massive clinical depression, I checked myself into a psy hospital and diagnosed as a bpII. Explains why I could work for 20 straight hours on a hobby :), Was in therapy about 6 years used eskalith,and an antidepressant x something. The doc told me I wasn't taking my meds right, so I quit. That was at least six years ago. I work part time.
Treatments
- Fish Oil Working / Worked
- seems to make my brain feel less pain sensitive
- Group Therapy Not Working
- Group broke my confidence in other people.
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- using b vitamins, calcium/magnesium/zinc, valerian root, Perrier, prayer, seems to be keeping me going
- Vitamin C Working / Worked
- seems to get the muddleness,fuzzness out of my head. Makes the thought process sharp,Gives me motivation.
Close ADHD / ADD
Did n't do to well in scool, always had to read the same page like 40 times before something would stick. Highly creative. Now suffering with bipolarII. Link? When I took an Iq test by a professional it came back as 80, even though I have been a systems admin over 5 companies in the the past before the BP diagnosis. So I think add and maybe an ld has played a major force in my life. Is add related to something traumatic in my life?
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
Was bullied from 1st grade till 7th grade. Was sexually assaulted by a ninth grader in his backyard (we were at his neighbors house jumping on their trampoline when he called me over) He pulled down my pants and laughed.Was married to a woman who took Broke down my healthy boundaries by assaulting my self esteem and my honor. Ridiculing me, humiliating me in public in front of my family. My Mother and my sister both saw what she was doing to me and what she was like, but I didn't.
Open Single Dads
Dad of 3 teens divorced 13 years, 1 Boy @ purdue 1 Boy at U of Mich 1 Girl Starting Highschool. Married 11 years, I became Clinically Depressed, Father died of cancer then wife divorced me 6 months after trying to take everything. I am still alive
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