Swillis's Journal

Today was a little better pain wise.  I feel like I fell all the way down the ladder and now I have to crawl back up one step at a time.  I know it can be done.  I just have to take one day at a time, get plenty of rest, and not expect too much of myself.

Momf33, your comments always make me feel better!  I know that someone cares.  It is not that I don't think my family cares, because I know they really do.  But, people here on DS can really understand the things I go through.

I will make it and I will have more good days.  One step up the ladder at a time.  I don't know what I will do whenever I finally reach the top of that ladder!!  LOL 

Unfortunately my good day did not last beyond that day.  I have had some of my most painful days ever this week.

Yesterday and today have been terrible.  I can't sleep at night because of the pain.  I can only squeeze out a few good hours in the mornings and then by lunch I am hurting all over.  When I hurt this bad it is difficult to think.  I took my pain meds and went to bed for several hours on both days.  I just laid there and tried not to move.  Even crying made the pain worse.  

I pray that tomorrow will be a better day.  We are supposed to be leaving for vacation in 3 more days.  I will be totally miserable if I don't improve before then. 

I can't believe what a wonderful day I have had today.  This is the first day in a very long time that I have not had any pain.  I have not had to lie down at all today.  I went to church and then I went to a museum dedication at the university campus.  I even got to go out to eat with some friends after the dedication.  I am still up and not tired and not hurting!!!!!

Wow!!!