I thought I was getting better!
May 16, 2008 9:54pm
I have been doing fine healing from a very abusive relationship. Meet a FEMALE FRIEND BACK IN MAY 2007 listened to her sobs stories the next …
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EarthAngel2000’s Profile
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EarthAngel2000
is feeling Horrible
About Me
In the medical profession. Always a fool in love. Divorced for 5 years now and trying to make sense of what has happened to my life and relationships in the past. I always love deeply and believed passionately that love can surpass all odds. Finally, I found the true and undying love of my life. Not so much of trying hard or faking anything just feels so natural and easy this time. Thank God, hoping to marry him soon. So I'm here to get help and do the same in return. I've met a lot of wonderful human beings here more than I ever expected and imagine I would. I will always cherish and welcome any advice and emotional assistance from anyone. Thanks to all of the beautiful souls who supported and helped me in those times of need and continued to do so undconditionally. Love every one of you!!!
Interests
I was gonna be an MD but listened to my ex-husband not to pursue it. I settled for being an RN instead. Now that I'm burned out from nursing, I would like to try to get into medical school. Long shot but I can dream. There is a saying, "People who dream go somewhere and those who don't get nowhere". I like interior decorating on my down time, going to see a movie, walking on the beach holding hands with the one who I adore and love. Boating, fishing, traveling and shopping. Just purchased an 18 foot boat. The water is so beautiful and relaxing. I also like hiking and biking. I go to the gym as much as I can to stay in-shape.
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Journal Entry for March 1, 2008
March 1, 2008 12:31am
I know we all go from this world someday but for some it's just too soon. Death has its sting. The only thing that …
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Journal Entry for February 21, 2008
February 21, 2008 2:04am
Just stopping by to say hey,
Wish everyone a great upcoming weekend. I've been productive lately and keeping busy at work and home. …
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Support Groups
Close Depression Supporters
From time to time I fall into depression asking why do I have to go through life with heartaches that cut so deep. I fall in love so hard and hurt so hard as well. My emotion gets the best of me when I remember those days I tried so hard to keep my relationship intact and to work. I know it takes two to love and make it to forever together sort of thing but darn it I kept getting involved with men who just wants short-term relationship lying of wanting a long-term one. Go figure..
Treatments
Close Anxiety
This days that I wouldn't be able to trust someone who says they love me. I am more gun-shy now than ever after a divorce of 18 years of marriage and break up of a 4.5 years with someone who emotionally, verbally and physically abused me. Before the EXBF left I was all torn to pieces emotionally and psychologically. He did took my trust in men and now I'm not only petrified in trusting a man again but also am lost in being able to decern who the real lover and whose not.
Open Bereavement
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- Grief Counseling Considering
- Prayer Not Working
- Psychotherapy Considering
Open Infidelity
WAS GOING THROUGH MY DIVORCE WHEN I MET AN EXCEPTIONALLY WONDERFUL GOD'S CREATURE. I IMMEDIATELY FALL IN LOVE WITH THIS GUY. THEN I MET ANOTHER MAN WITHIN FEW MONTHS AFTER WHICH I STUPIDLY ENDED UP HAVING SEXUAL RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT LOVE INVOLVED. NOW THE LOVE OF MY LIFE... THE FIRST MAN COULDN'T FORGIVE ME AND KEEP BRINGING IT UP CALLING ME AN INFIDEL AND COMMITTED AN INFIDELITY WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP. TRIED BEGGING FOR FORGIVENESS OVER AND OVER THEN BEEN TOLD FORGIVEN BUT NOT IN ACTION. EACH TIME I WAS TOLD I'M A CHEATER I WOULD CHEAT SOME MORE WITH THE SAME GUY AND DID IT 4-5 TIMES THROUGH THE COURCE OF 2 YEARS. SHOULD I STAY OR SHOULD I GO. IT'S BEEN 4 YEARS NOW AND THE FIGHT ABOUT THE INFEDILITY IS GETTING MORE PAINFUL TO THE POINT OF ME ALMOST LOSING MY MIND NOT TO MENTION ME SHRIVELING TO A MERE 86 LBS. IN WEIGHT. I KNOW IT IS WORTH THE FIGHT TO KEEP TRYING TO WORK IT OUT BUT LATELY I'M THE ONLY ONE WHO IS TRYING ANYMORE. HIS DEMANDS ARE GETTING LONGER IN ASKING ME TO CHANGE MORE THAN I ALREADY HAVE FROM FINDING THIS SUPPORT GROUP TO READING MATERIALS GOOD FOR THE SOULS TO STAYING AWAY FROM ME MORE THAN 3 MONTHS. PLEASE HELP ME AND NOT BE JUDGEMNETAL TO MY CHEATING MORE THAN 3 TIMES. GOING THROUGH A DIVORCE WAS NOT AN EXCUSED BUT I WAS NEW TO BEING IN THE DATING SCENE AND MY DATING ETIQUET WAS NOT IN PLACED YET AT THAT TIME I MET THIS TWO GENLEMAN. NONETHELESS I RECOGNIZED MY FAULTS AND BEEN TRUE FOR 2 YEARS NOW BUT WAS NOT GOOD ENOUGH. PLEASE HELP ANYONE?
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
Open Breakups & Divorce
I have broken up with my sweetheart so many times for the past 4 years now. Lately we were separated for three months..the longest we ever been apart. I am a miss and drowning in my own tears. Can somebody help me. I can't endure more painfful break up anymore for the second time of my life. 18 years of marriage ended 4 years ago by my ex's choice and now this one of 4 years. Pain is so great I'm losing weight so dangerously affecting my mind not to mention my body. Depressed, sleepless, animated, no appetite, and no hope in sight of ever getting back what I have lost...his love. I want to work it out but he only gives excuses to try to separate more time apart from each other. I think he found someone during the 3 months of being away from each other.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- Love Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- Self-help Working / Worked
- EarthAngel2000 found these books helpful: Too Good To Leave Too Bad To Stay by Mira Kirshenbaum. Mars and Venus Starting Over by John Gray, Ph.D.; Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus by John Gray, Ph.D.; The Heartbreak Handbook by Valerie Frankel and Ellen Tien
Open Migraine Headaches
Hello. I have suffered from migraine headaches for 14 years due to sinus congestion that always and never fail to turned into a sinusitis. When migraine hit I vomit, my head swells up from me smacking it just to get relief. Tried everything: meds, putting tourniquet to my skull, sleeping in the dark to chiropractic adjustments-no luck. Migraine attacks usually knocks me out of commission for 3 days before trips to E.R. & walk in clinics or OTC meds were implemented. Relief was shortlive.
Treatments
- Aspirin Not Working
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- Fioricet Somewhat Helpful
- Fiorinol Somewhat Helpful
- Imitrex Somewhat Helpful
- Raising Bed Position Working / Worked
- Use two pillows as high as I can. Compromises postural alignment-causes neck/upper back pain but positon changes lessen the discomfort. I have infrequent migraines now.
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