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Well my boyfriend just left for the night. I told him a few weeks ago that he couldn't drink in front of my son, and tonight when he ran out of dr. pepper he opened a beer and poured it in the dp can. I told him that was so disrespectful and that if he had to drink he had to leave.. So he did.. BUT... He didn't leave until I took my dinner in the bedroom.. Well call me crazy, but I fully expected an apology for disrespecting me even if he didn't mean to... HE could have said "I'm sorry I wasn't trying to disrespect you..." at least he could have said that.. So excuse me if I didn't want to be in the same room with him until he acknowledged it...
Am I insane for feeling this way???????
So then he packed up and left.. He said he'll be back tomorrow, but we'll see. I'm just sick and tired of being disrespected.. The guy I dated before this one, was the worse. He really treated me bad, lied all the time and all that.. Charlie (the current b/f) is great for the most part.. Drinking is his downfall.. He isn't abusive or anything like that.. But it's annoying, and something I don't want my son thinking is ok.
Sometimes I just don't feel like I'm worthy of real love.. I can't ever seem to find that guy that has all the qualities I want.. I always get a little here or a little there, I swear if I could put the ex and this guy together I'd have the perfect man. Oh well... I'm 32 years old, single, never married, a son that's going to be 15 in October, a go nowhere life, and am stuck in this hell hole town till he graduates.. But I'll live, and I guess I'll be stronger for it. I just want a man that will respect me; treat me good; help out around the house; romantic.... Blah blah blah.. it's all a dream.. I'm destined to be single FOREVER!!! Single as in never married.
I guess I've vented enough.. I'm PMSing so I'm sure that has a little to do with feeling like sh!t, but it doesn't make it hurt less knowing that's what's behind it...
