Fathers Day
Happy Father's Day to all the dads here. Kind of a weird day for me I guess. Spent a lot of time on here today so emotions running around. My own …
is feeling Bad
Well still am 55 but that will be changing soon, too soon really. I have been BP probably all my life, even as an 8 year old I can remember feeling not quite the same as it seemed everyone else did. I over-reacted to stuff, I felt isolated, I was even paranoid. My solace was food, which is still some to this day but I am trying hard to undo that. I trade eating for reading, but usually wind up eating while I read. I have 5 adult kids, and 6 grands, 2 stepsons (also adults), I have been married for a bit over a year now but we were together for close to 18 years before then. Only difference is when i sign my name using his last name now it is legal LOL. I also have arthritis, diabetes type2 and a host of other ailments which seem to come and go at will. I just had the second of carpral tunnel surgeries. The R hand is healing nicely, twinges every now and then but so far so good. I had the 2nd done Feb 20. It is healing fast, it is at the itching stage so I take that as a good sign and what bruising there is at the wrist area is now that lovely yellowy color bruises get when healing. The arthritis is still there but does not hurt near as much now since the carpral tunnel was releived. I am grateful for that. Not much else I guess. I still love to read, sleep, eat, but now it is American Idol season so that gives me a break. I do not watch much tv but always gotta watch that. I have been walking a bit, as the weather improves I will walk more. Here in Northern CA we can have winter one day then spring the next and right now were in the spring mode...70 degrees we have been promised for today and my daffodils are blooming. All the wild flowering plums, cherries etc are blooming too. It can be very pretty in this neck of the world this time of year, well before July comes and it will be in the 100's plus. Just not too soon please.
Reading, some tv shows and movies, chocolate, trying to figure out mysteries in real life and odd things here and there. I do not have any major interests like others, I think that is part of my BP. I jump back and forth about things never settling on one thing. It bothers me sometimes but not much I can do about it eh? Over the years I have joined and left many groups, learned to crochet, some phtotgraphy, some painting etc. Nothing ever seemed to fit, but then what does I guess. I still do like taking pictures. Especially now in the age of digital. Take pics, go home and put the card in the reader and look. Instant gratification. I carry the camera with me all the time usually, small and fits in purse. I just hav not seen anything of late that is worthy of taking a picture. Of course I have not really gone anywhere. I am tired of the same old things, so I really need to get out and go drive or something. Seems I take mainly pictures of Louie, my little parrot. Not that he is stunning, just sometimes he looks so dang cute, but he is a shithead....bites me and ruffles his feathers when i go to feed him. Feeding being the operative word. He loves my husband, but tolerates me at best. oh well, my kitties like me better LOL Maybe someday I will find something of passion for me and I will post it here so everyone can see. Guess too many years of depression, even interspersed with manic moods, can spoil things up. I do like the DS thingy though, fun hearing about others, finding out I am not alone and in some cases remarkably well considering.
Happy Father's Day to all the dads here. Kind of a weird day for me I guess. Spent a lot of time on here today so emotions running around. My own …
My Koko and Smooches send you loving purrs! Since I've gotten home from the hospital/doc appts. they have been fighting. I can tell they've missed their mommy and are vying for attention! All the best to you and your babies!
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So sorry about the fires. Keep safe! Love,Pam
Came by to say hello and hoe are you I read your post CT Hope your feeling well Caroline
So, what's happening with you?
To the point...been on Lipitor for 5 years. For 4 years now I have been experiencing graduating pain in my L hand and now the R and some in the hip and knee. I have been prodded, poked, shocked, MRI's, X-rayed, fed pain killers like candy. No one had any one theory, so they decided I had arthritis...bad!!!! So I have had injections, physical therapy and early on Vioxx (which did help the pain early on). Guess what? CK level was high from the Lipitor, off lipitor, ck down, chol hihg..I am pissed
A little over 4 years ago I went to my doctors for a routine exam and mentioned I was having pain in the fleshy area of my palm just below the thumb. She gave me Vioxx which took the pain away asap but we all know what happened to Vioxx. Fast forward to now. Advanced arthritis in both hands and possibility of surgery on the L hand if we cannot find any treatment to at least ease some of the pain. I am exhausted,depressed and desperate. Has anyone had surgery to "fix" their arthritis?
Back pain is just another ailment for me. I put it in the same class of arthritis since I have that too and the pain treatment I use for one works for the other. I have 2 wedge deformaties and a stress fracture on the mid to lower spine. After a long day it hurts the worse and all I can do is pop a pill, hot shower and lay down. Usually I feel better within an hour but it is usually a full day before I feel fine, for a while at least.
I started having hand pain about 5 years ago now. I got bounced around from dr to dr as no one would committ to any one diagnosis. So after many tests, many drs visits, x-rays, mri's etc it was finally determined (after nerve tests) I had CT in both hands. I still have arthritis in both hands in the same place, the lower joint below the thumbs. So I am still working on trying to get some relief whatever way I can.
I am married to a man I have been with for over 18 years. Right now I am seriously thinking of leaving him, at least temporarily but finances probably will not make it possible. He suffers from depression and will not seek any kind of help. I also am BP and the last several weeks it just has gotten so bad I can barely stand to be around him. I asked him straight out today if he would like me to move out and he says why? Because I am sad and unhappy.
Today we learned my husband has prostate cancer. He will be having treatment as soon as possible. We have no idea what kind yet. I am hoping to find answers, ask questions and get some good old fashioned advise and support here.