Journal Entry for June 18, 2007
June 18, 2007 7:36pm
Hi everybody, I hope everyone is doing well. Was out of pocket for a couple of days, but good to get back to my dose of "Daily Strength" I …
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missearnest
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About Me
I am and always will be young at heart. I come from a large family, they live south. I have 2 birds and 2 cats. I have 1 daughter and 2 grndchldrn, (no Partridge in a pear tree) My grndchldrn have stolen my heart, I suspect I'll never recover it. They are my light. I sometimes have depression.
Interests
I love the company of others, laughing, cooking, walking on the beach, and sometimes just watching the cloads pass by. I enjoy designing jewelry and oil painting. I love music, (almost all of it), I am dependant on it. I love birds and trees. I love the ocean, and am easily entranced by it.
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Journal Entry for June 12, 2007
June 12, 2007 10:51am
Today is my birthday, so I am drinking my coffee and thinking over the past year. There has been quite a bit of drama this yr.
I had to …
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Journal Entry for June 2, 2007
June 2, 2007 12:28pm
As I struggled with my childhood and all the abuse, I would often ask myself why did this happen. I would go to preachers of the church, I …
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Journal Entry for June 2, 2007
June 2, 2007 11:57am
My heart goes to each one of you today, wishing all of you a big warm hug. I was blessed this wk and didn't have any triggers or anything to put …
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Journal Entry for May 30, 2007
May 30, 2007 11:25pm
I have enjoyed chatting with everyone on my first day at Daily Strength. Thank you everyone for being so kind and warm , I promise I truly …
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Hey there! Just came by 2 give u a big ole' hug sicne u are a happy camper (((LOL)))
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Hi there! where u been? well i ws thinking of you 2day so here's a warm hug 2 you!
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sometimes the best thing to do when we need support is give some to our friends
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Going on vacation, check my journal!
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heres a hug 2 last & last to let ya know this 2 shall pass ure in our thoughts and in our prayers heres a hug to show i care! ---karen
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Close Sexual Abuse
I come from a family of 10 children & 7 were older than me. I have 7 broth. and 2 sis. I was malested by my father at the age of 4, my brothers also started on me at that same age. Five out of seven brothers molested me and was also raped by a half brother when I was 21 or 22. Later my daughter and I were taken at gunpt and held hostage as we were drvn out of the city and in a forrest I was continually raped. Had a breakdown when I was in my mid 30's. Mostly it seems like another lifetime ago.
Treatments
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I had severe sexual abuse starting at 4 from my father and 5 of 7 brothers. I never told anyone for years. I was raped by my half brother when I was @ 21 . My daughter and I were held at gunpt and made to drive out of the city and in a forrest I was repeatedly raped for 9 hrs. I was 23 y.o. My mother died when I was 27 y.o. she was my best friend. My ex-husband beat me up cause I confronted him about an affair he was having while I was out of town visiting my dieing mother. Police got me out.
Treatments
- Art Working / Worked
- I had to draw a family tree while in the hosp.for a breakdown.I took too much time getting the detail in the tree, it didn't have any green foilage.It had alot of scars.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- I think it worked. Now I am on something else.
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- That was very helpful and for the first time let me speak of my childhood. It was liberating even if I did tremble for 6 mo strt. I have to watch for triggers.
- Supportive Care Working / Worked
- When I had my breakdown it was pretty much Pandora's box opening. I was in extensive therapy and meds. for at least 5 or 6 yrs immediately following the brkdwn.
- Art Working / Worked
- It relaxes me alot. I enjoy letting my creative side out. I like my pieces to pop!!!
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Prayer helps keep me protected in the light. For me it helps push the dark back.I also open my blinds and keep some light in.
Open Rape
I was molested and raped by members of my family. I was raped by my half brother when I was 21 y.o. Also when I was in my early twenties @ 23 y.o. my daughter (10 y.o. at the time) were taken at gunpoint from our apt. into a car and driven out of the city, to a state forrest where I was continually raped and we were held hostage for 9 hrs. The next day I was fired from my job for missing wk the previous day.
Treatments
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- very difficult as it brought up my childhood and the sexual abuse from it. I was worried about my daughter alot. We both had night terrors for a while, hers stopped soon.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Help hold the darkness back, gives me strength and courage.I also open my blinds and don't keep things too dark.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI come from a family of 10 kids. I was molested by my father when I was 4 y.o. and 2 brothers started on me too. I was molested for 13 yrs. by 5 brothers and my father (when he was home from jail). I was late raped by my half brother when I was 21 y.o. When I was @ 23 y.o. my daughter and I were taken at gunpoint out of the city and into a state forrest where I was repeatedly raped for 9 hrs. My mother worked and never knew till I decided to leave home at 16 y.o. I told her and then left.
Treatments
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- very helpful
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- was very helpful. When things feel like their piling up thats when I know to get some therapy in.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Keeps the darkness back and gives me strength and courage for each new day.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I have been wed 23 yrs.He has been a trk drvr 21 yrs of the marriage.He stops in 2 wknds a mo.He is not capable of intimacy, I lost a family member and was crying at the table and he watched me fall apart and never came to hug me. Also women call the house.He will push me away when I want a hug. He doesn't slow kisses any.8 mins for sex, well he gets his anyway.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- enjoy and appreciate real people with pearls of wisdom. I appreciate there are people here that genuinely care.
- Music Working / Worked
- music always brings peace for me. I listen to alot of Christian music too.
- Pets Working / Worked
- They are loving and affectionate and never push me away. My husband is jealous of my cat Moses cause he is so affectionate to me.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- My friends have been the best support possible, they all encourage me to leave .
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