chrisjames’s Profile

About Me

i would do anythink for love..... when i was 4 i was put into care i stayed ther untill i was ten, all i whated was to be narmol{ have a family} so at 10 i went home it i could not reed or wright my own name so at school i was bullied all day ever day my home was a nightmare drugs and drnk ever where the police was ther a lot of the time and i slept where i could all iwhated was to be loved and hugd but at the time i did not no any better i thought that this is what familys wher like i thought that i was a bad boy that is why i went away i cried a lot but no one cared i did not go t school much as my mum could not be bourthed to take me at 14 my mum was tould that if i did not go back to school iwould be put back into care she said it was up to me so i left, at 17 i meet agirl and we fell in love i could not belive it we had to kids and it was great but it started to go wrong for me i could not dill with the pressure i did not know how to be a dad and i started to drink and take drugs i know how to do this as it had been around me for years and the depression set in for 10 yars my girlfriend and kids witched me go down and down untill one day i saw the tears in ther eyes and the tears wher like spiers that wher killing me and after 6 more years i could not hold it togther no more ad i OD on pills but it did not work and 2 weeks latter i tryed agen on pills and agen it did not work this time my girlfriend said i had to go she said she did not love mr no more and that i could not stay with her and the kids that shatterd me she meet sm one new sum one who was good to my kids and new how to be a dad it hurt but my kids love him thay moved away and i see them no more it is then that i cut bouth my wrists and thay put me in a nut house but all i still whated was to be loved and huged, 3 years later i mat a girl and we had a boy i was so scared i did not what to mess hes head up he needs a dad and i still dont know what a dad does it has been 10 years now and my son {jack} is 6 and i love him more then life but hes mum dous not went to be with me no more so once agen i am on my own. i live on my own now and i see jack as muce as i can, i am 45 now 6 foot a big man but all i am still looking for is sum one to love me and hug me i hug my boy all the time and tell him i love him so much i think that inside i am still that littall boy who was put into care and at night i still cry and i still what to be huged so thank you all who sand me hugs thay meen more to me then you will ever know, {THANK YOU}

Interests

music. music. and music. did i say music.