PartoftheProblem's Journal

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NACR Daily Meditation for Friday, May 16, 2008

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If I go to the heavens, you are there; If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.  Psalm 139:8

Sometimes life is hell.  That's how it feels.  It feels like we have taken up residence in hell.  Sometimes the darkness overwhelms us.  Sometimes we hurt so much that we can't imagine experiencing joy or peace ever again.  Sometimes we seem to have 'made our bed ' in a place that God has deserted, a place from which God has turned away.

But the psalmist says 'even if I make my bed in the depths, you are there'.  There are no genuinely God-forsaken places on our journey.  There are no places unfamiliar to God. It is a difficult and painful journey, but ourlines of support are not stretched thin.  God is not at a distance.  God is with us.

If God is with us, we can travel through those dark times in recovery, those times in hell.  If God is with us, we can hold on through the difficult emotional and spiritual roller coaster of recovery.

No matter where I am, Lord
you are with me.
If I am up, today.
You are here.
If I am down.
You are here.
If I am very, very down.
You are still here.
If I am very, very, very, very, very down.
You are here.
Thank you.
Even in the terrible times when I am in the depths, you are there with me.
Your presence is a ray of hope
in the dark times of my recovery.

Amen.