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Ah, a long-awaited day off for me today :o)
I sort of wish that I would spend the day doing art -- ceramics maybe -- but instead I guess I'm going to catch up with some of the friends that I've neglected while I was teaching that class this past semester. (I suppose I should find friends who want to do art so I could catch up at the same time!!)
When I was a kid, my Dad used to tell me: "You are like me; a loner." But I always thought/felt: "Uh, no, Dad, I'm alone a lot, but I'm lonely, not a loner...there is a difference."
Hmmm.....I wonder if people would see me as a loner now? I suppose strangers might, because I'm only outgoing with people once I've gotten to know and trust them a bit.
Anyway, I won't be a loner today, because I will get to have coffee with one very good friend, and then later maybe have lunch and a movie with another favorite friend. Actually, I guess this is the week of "catching up" with people since, in addition to today's activities, I/we have social activities also planned for Friday night, Sat night, Sun afternoon, Monday night, and possibly next Friday too! Yeesh!
It's interesting though, that in the midst of all the busyness and connections with the good friends that I have, I do still have some of that same core feeling of loneliness that I had when I was a kid. My current hypothesis is that it is something spiritual rather than social. So, I started asking some people to talk (email actually) about spiritual stuff with me. This is something that is new as of the last 2-4 years I think. Prior to recently I think I was more focused on "just thinking" (mostly alone) about spiritual stuff. I mostly took stuff in, and didn't really say that much in return, though I was definitely thinking about stuff. Now all of a sudden I'm compelled to engage and discuss with others about it for some reason.
Maybe I'm just getting less shy. :o) Or, LOL, maybe just more desperate!! :oD
Today's email thought o'the'day was about looking at other people through the eyes of love, and how this is the best way to come to "know" them. (As opposed, I guess, to looking at people through suspicion and distrust--which maybe distorts your 'knowing' of the other person). Maybe I will write more about that later. :o)
But since it is my day off, I'm tempted to "meditate" on this thought in bed...(Naps Happen!)
I sort of wish that I would spend the day doing art -- ceramics maybe -- but instead I guess I'm going to catch up with some of the friends that I've neglected while I was teaching that class this past semester. (I suppose I should find friends who want to do art so I could catch up at the same time!!)
When I was a kid, my Dad used to tell me: "You are like me; a loner." But I always thought/felt: "Uh, no, Dad, I'm alone a lot, but I'm lonely, not a loner...there is a difference."
Hmmm.....I wonder if people would see me as a loner now? I suppose strangers might, because I'm only outgoing with people once I've gotten to know and trust them a bit.
Anyway, I won't be a loner today, because I will get to have coffee with one very good friend, and then later maybe have lunch and a movie with another favorite friend. Actually, I guess this is the week of "catching up" with people since, in addition to today's activities, I/we have social activities also planned for Friday night, Sat night, Sun afternoon, Monday night, and possibly next Friday too! Yeesh!
It's interesting though, that in the midst of all the busyness and connections with the good friends that I have, I do still have some of that same core feeling of loneliness that I had when I was a kid. My current hypothesis is that it is something spiritual rather than social. So, I started asking some people to talk (email actually) about spiritual stuff with me. This is something that is new as of the last 2-4 years I think. Prior to recently I think I was more focused on "just thinking" (mostly alone) about spiritual stuff. I mostly took stuff in, and didn't really say that much in return, though I was definitely thinking about stuff. Now all of a sudden I'm compelled to engage and discuss with others about it for some reason.
Maybe I'm just getting less shy. :o) Or, LOL, maybe just more desperate!! :oD
Today's email thought o'the'day was about looking at other people through the eyes of love, and how this is the best way to come to "know" them. (As opposed, I guess, to looking at people through suspicion and distrust--which maybe distorts your 'knowing' of the other person). Maybe I will write more about that later. :o)
But since it is my day off, I'm tempted to "meditate" on this thought in bed...(Naps Happen!)
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oops! a nap happened! lol
will write back over the weekend, I think (of course, the last time I told you that, the "weekend" was 30 days long)
Fiddler
I really like that thought. I think it's time for me to put it to good use.
heartbreak101
By the way, thanks for posting it.
heartbreak101
So you think you are shy??And prehaps somewhat mistrusting,My way was to automatically give a good introduction.Then later,I recalled the nights events and I'd start my process of annihilation by reason of insecerity(or so I convienced myself).I think it is good for you to interact in these social events,because all that matters when you get home is that you were who you are!!!You are engaging here so I see you take it to the next plane.So you know I am practically your neighbor and I have made many a friends in my neighborhood.But they just don't have the knowledge I have obtained over the years of vunerability.And you can so relay what I may be feeling with a much more chance of being right-on!!!Luv_Ya!!!
Sheena