And some days you take a little step back...
May 21, 2008 2:43am
Every few weeks I have a few sad days where (I think) I'm grieving my marriage/husband. I do miss his hugs ... I don't miss the …
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About Me
My husband moved out on May 5th, 2007 ... or in this case, Stinko de mayo! LOL It has been VERY hard year for me, even though it was not an ideal marriage - or even a happy one for a long time. Here I am, alive and still standing 1 year later and I'm SO thankful I got through it and the worst of the heartache is behind me! Logically I knew there had to be a light at the end of the tunnel, but I had lonely days/nights where I felt utterly hopeless. I know it was a good thing that he left. Someday I'm going to want to send him a thank-you card, because I deserved a happier life then the one we shared together. And I'm working on a new, exciting, lucrative career for myself that I will truly enjoy. If we were still together, he would have had a FIT if I'd gone back to school full-time, and his constant tantraums would have been a huge distraction and effected my performance in college. So ... hasta la bye-bye. I'm sad that my marriage failed (you go into marriage hoping for the best and brightest future together and I only wanted to be married one time, "for keeps") as it is the end of a dream (some might say a nightmare LOL). I do miss the good parts of him and "us", but better to be alone then with the wrong partner! The PollyAnna in me says at least I had true love once -- some people go their whole life without ever feeling cherished by a single soul.
Interests
NBA, reading, writing, roller-coasters, animals/pets, getting to know new people, concerts, snorkeling, feeding the ducks, music, clever comediennes, and continuing my education! I am also a big flirt because I LOVE to banter!!! FOOTNOTE TO THOSE DEVASTATED BY RECENT BREAK-UPS: It WILL get better, I promise!!!
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night owl...
May 8, 2008 5:55am
OK, well it's been a year since hub-sand moved out. We are legally separated and I owe him some money (despite being in a house that's …
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Journal Entry for January 19, 2008
January 19, 2008 8:47pm
It's been a rough week for me ... one of those I want to die weeks. No, I'm not actually thinking about suicide, just really hatin' …
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Journal Entry for January 9, 2008
January 9, 2008 2:42am
Tonight I am wondering when I will see the light at the end of the tunnel ... when I will have a significant event occur (good OR bad) …
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All I can say is I'm going thru a transformation too! You're not alone with this I like what you wrote down.
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Okay I know it has been awhile and I feel bad for not keeping up the hugs like I use too. So here is a hug for no certain reason, no certain day, just to let you know I still and always will care for my friends like you even when I am in the back round!! Big Freaking Hugs today for you! (((((((((((((((BFH)))))))))))))))
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Thanks so much for saying that.
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Thank you so much for the hug and your support! It helps. Big hug back to you.
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Around three months. I am heartbroken, we only married last July and I took him marrying me to mean that he was committed to us and his selfish days were over. I think he will always run back to me in the end, not many women would put up with such rotten treatment and he knows I wont abandon him or be unfaithful. He is completely oblivious to the pain he causes me.
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Close Breakups & Divorce
5/5/07
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- Al-Anon Working / Worked
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- I am trying to forgive myself for the choice I made to marry this man, and recently it was brought to my attention that even tho this marriage is over, I will have an opportunity to be a better partner to someone else (I've been beating myself up pretty good emotionally, blaming myself). I think for me, forgiving myself is the hardest and perhaps most important step towards eventually healing...
- Pets Working / Worked
- If you're not an animal lover this will sound lame, but my kitties have saved my life. At 2:00am when I'm all alone and bawling, they jump up on my bed and snuggle me, making me feel loved and reminding me that they depend on me.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Reading Working / Worked
- I've bought about 10 self-help books on loving myself, divorce, coping with grief, etc.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Where would I be without the loving hearts of my friends/family who listen to me cry and gently remind me of the truth when my pain or feelings of failure cause me to forget what a poor husband he was 95% of the time...
- Time Working / Worked
- I am not as devastated as I was 5 mos ago, but I do wish I was more "over" him/our marriage then I am...
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