i did it . i did the fasting . …
i did it . i did the fasting . i did the praying . i did the worshipping i did it all and He rewarded me during …
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He is the shoe. I am the ABC gum, Im not worthy of being in his pocket, so he chewed me up spit me out and decided to step on my heart along the way. He called and said, " I have problems" Im getting help" TO treat me with such hateful words and disrespect makes me want him to stay the hell away from me. I told him on the phone that I have my guard up and that I will be standing between his abusive temper and the kids and I wont tolerate one more word being yelled at me.
NOT ONE!! I am doing all I can to put my life and spirit back together and he is robbing my joy. Its as if he wants everyone around him to be as miserable as he is.... I DONT THINK SO ....I told him that I would always tell him if he was on thin ice and he had the balls to say, hey if I go to all this "trouble" to get medication let me know if you're going to leave me so I dont bother. He needs to do this for himself. He is insecure and has butchered the self esteem of the boys and now me. I feel so ugly right now, like an insignificant person that he would say such things risking our marriage when he knows why I left my exhusband. RESPECT. I have earned it. I have been his little maid for near 10 years now and I should be rewarded and lifted up for my efforts not brought down. He told me last night the horse had to go. I did say then I think his motorcycle should go too.
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I can still feel the sting of his words...everything, our financial issues are all my fault....its my fault that my ex stalked us and he mismanaged our finances??? Its my fault that I had to spend my entire savings on legal fees? Give me a break. I may not be the best with money, I suck in fact, but no one is perfect. I only shop when Im really depressed, my mom taught me that....to lft my spirits...and during/after losing Sarah I did get a little credit happy but no extremely. Im thinking very hard of a back up plan because he might be able to get away with spitting me out once or twice but neve again, and I am not sleeping in the bed with him, I am just too wounded. I feel invalued and so alone and my friend didnt call me back....where is she when I need her? I was there for her......really there....
Sarahsma
hang in there it will work out , just remember you are not ugly , you are beautiful both inside and out . and you deserve respect and a good life .
dizzylizzie
Hey guess what I think you are beautiful!!! Let God show you this beauty. One, you are compassionate, Two, you have a great sense of humor, three you are caring four, you know how to love, fifth you set goals and go after them, (that makes you an achiever) six, you are full of life, seven you are kind, eight, you know how to speak nine, you will jump for anyone you care about, ten, you are so lovable. Matt must open his heart and his mind and see the gold and beauty he has at his house. Be strong.
eileenR