I have been keeping very busy lately with work and family stuff. I am still feeling very down. My realtionship with my husband is not really getting any better. I find that everytime I express frustration or anger over our situation- he gets angry at me for doing so. I am sick and tired of feeling like I have to keep everything inside all of the time. He always cuts me off to when I start to say something that he doesn't like and then proceeds to insult me by calling me messed up or saying I am rude or some other mean remark. I really don't know what to do anymore. If I keep being unable to express my feelings- eventually I am going to explode. I thought I was ready to leave this network, as I am trying to work on my marriage and I feel that because of this some people who are unable to- may feel bad. Since I have really no other outlet to truly express myself I can't give up this site just yet. I hope you all are doign well and finding strength in your moments of weakness as I am trying to do the same. Big Hugs and prayers to all.
Please dont feel like you would have to stop posting on the site just because you are working on your marriage. I'm sure most would be happy for you! It's a source of comfort for me, even though I'm not divorced or even separated at this time. It's nice to know I'm not alone, and you're not either. Hang in there girlie.
jmb32
Hang in there it will get better mine did. I was married for 10 years and 8 years of it my x was very emotional abusive to me he belittled me and told me thing as such i could not make it on my own without him. But I have proved him wrong I know alot that I didnot think I would know, but now I am with a man that treats me great and does not belittle me at all nor does he try to control me
creame
"Sometimes change is what's best, letting your heart break, and learning how to cope gives you strength that you never knew you had."
momto4
I worked on my marriage for a long time and it still did not work. I would never feel bad someone for trying. I hope it works out for you. If he cuts you off and is still insulting you maybe you need to find another way to "work on it". As Momto4 said above "sometimes change is what's best" Having to keep everything inside in a relationship will NEVER work. I know my ex kept everything in until she found HIm. Deep down inside I knew months before my ex left that it was over. I just did not have the strength myself to end it. Search deep and make sure your husband is the "ONE" for you. If he is not, your stregth will come through and we will all support you. Best of Luck
youngerthan45
Hi- please keep posting! It will help you so much. Would a separation be out of the question?
vanillabeane
I wish my wife had expressed any level of fustration with our realtionship. Instead, she leaves me for the guy she dated 20yrs ago. Telling me she has always loved him. I never was given the chance to know I wasn't her love. Considering she always said she loved me and treated me with such, I had no warning. No chance to save our Marriage. Sunday would have been our 15th aniversary. I hope your relationship and your sanity is spared my fate. Thx for sharring sweetie.
leep
You should always share the good and the bad. I enjoy reading the stories of success, it gives hope for the future whether it be with your spouse or someone else. Keep writing, it's therapeutic too, lol.
kokie
Just because many of us are unable to save our relationships, no one wishes that on you. I hope you're marriage survives and thrives. No matter what, you are welcome here. Take care and best wishes.
lilablue
I know how it is to feel torn, trying to fight for our marriage and feel depress while trying to hold back the pain. Emotions are sometimes so unbarable but I look into my childrens eyes and see the strenght that I need. And sometimes thats all it takes for me, let your children be your strength.
cg733
There's no need to stop posting, no matter what!! I do understand your feelings ... you're not alone. Try to do what's best for you. Easier said than done, I know!! (((HUGS))))))
sky123456
Keep doing what is best for you and your children. Everyone needs an outlet.
Paul561
We are always here for you....Always come and vent anytime you need to.
Debra
Honey please don't leave the site,because that is what it's all about is people helping people. DEPEND ON US AS WE DEPEND ON EACH OTHER!!!!!!!!!! And SWEETHEART KNOW THAT YOU ARE LOVED !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Lynn
reallove
Hi i'm sorry about what is going on in your marriage, You know what?they say there is other people out there with the same problem as you and i'm one of them. I haven't been on line because i was working on my marriage and for some reason i tend to be missing something and that was my support.My husband cheated on me with my own friend who i let in my house,around my kids stayed at my house and all, and then one night something told me to get up because my husband wasnt in the bed with me, he was down stairs passed out drunk in the computer room. so i looked on his phone,and saw pictures of her necked and him takeing pictures of him self and i broke down. My husband is in the military and i took phone records,pic, and all to the highes level.until this day i think he still talks to her, he drinks, chokes me,calls me names,and i still dont know why im with this man,i'm scared of going out there with two boy's on my own i dont know what to do.maybe you can call me crazy,and most of the time when people tell us what we should do,we dont do it and what we do,do we shouldnt do it. so marriage is not a easy process, you go over that rough road it's hard to get off.
broken heart