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Sorry it has been so long since I have been around!! I have been so wrapped up in my new life that it was hard to find the time to journal. I must admit that I also feel guilty about being so happy when some of my dear friends are dealing with a miscarriage, trying to get pregnant, or dealing with infertility. I just want you all to know that I have been in your shoes and I am so sorry for what is going on in your lives right now. I pray for you each night and think of you daily. I was able to finally get Abram's birth story up and I think it has gotten me back into my journaling ways. =)
Today was Abram's 2 month check up!! He is actually 9 weeks old today! The time flies but at the same time I can't imagine my life without him. Man my life was boring before him!!
So Abram weighs 12.4 lbs, is 23 in. long, and his head circumference is 40 cm. He is the 90th percentile for his weight & 75th percentile for his height. The doctor said that he is absolutely beautiful and as healthy as they come.
He also got his 2 month shots today. I almost didn't get them because I am so scared of what everybody has been saying about shots lately but ultimately decided that getting them is what is best for him.
So I have been having some problems lately and I was wondering if other new moms are going through the same thing. I am so afraid that I am going to lose Abram to SIDS. I plead with the Lord every night not to take Abram away from me, I tell the Lord that I will do ANYTHING if he just lets my little boy grow up into a healthy, happy adult, I wake up at least 50 times a night and make sure he is still breathing, I have been having horrible nightmares where I forget Abram somewhere or he has been taken by somebody, and I have become an overall crazy person. Is this normal??? Is it because of my past miscarriage? I'm starting to really freak my husband out because I am so paranoid. What should I do?
Any advice/comments would be so greatly appreciated.
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It's normal. I was the most laid back mom with Kortnie until after my miscarriage in 2004. I think what made it even worse for me was the fact that I couldn't have any more children. She's the one and only. I became so paranoid. I wouldn't let her go anywhere or do anything. I took her out of gymnastics because I didn't want her to break her neck. I wouldn't let her go to friend's houses because I was afraid she'd get in a car accident while with them. At night I would check on her constantly to see if she was still in her room. She's almost 10 now and just this year have I let go. I'll let her go out of town with friends now. She's back in gymnastics and dance. She's flourishing. I have come to realize that I can't heep her in a "glass bubble". I have to let her live. Experience everything she can in life. I can't be so paranoid and so controlling. You'll lighten up in time. After the kind of loss we've been through, it's only natural to want the child you have to be safe. But they also need room to grow. Even at such a young age. Just keep praying for help to overcome your fears. Take Care. -Tara
vanity1
It is normal to worry about SIDS and the shots, if you didn't you wouldn't be a good Mom. Just research and talk to the doctor if any concerns. He certainly is a big boy and so beautiful. Take care and enjoy him.
joyce19974
I'm so glad to hear about Abram. And you're so sweet to still be thinking about the rest of us. I know you can't just "not worry" about Abram, but don't worry about worrying, I guess. You are a wonderful mother! Woo hoo!
KaybeyBaby
you sound like every other new mommy out there! Glad Abrham is doing so well! He's a handsome little guy!
atlmommy
I am glad to hear Abram is doing so well. I think about SIDS also and constantly check her breathing. It seems normal for any new mom.
taram1980
I think that we all worry. I know I sure do. All we can do is have faith that god will take care of the angles that he sent us.
kimber07
Glad to hear you are doing good hun. I dont know what to say about being parinoid tho because i am too. Infact i get up during the night to to see if hes ok, i pray to god everynight for Timothy to grow up to be a healhty adult as well. Tho i have not been having bad dreams like you have. I'm srry your soo paranoid, i wish i could say something to help, but i am in the same boeat and Timothy is almost 5 months, tho its not as bad as it was the first 3 months, but still bad..
GOODLUCK HUN
Kris19
I worry about sids too but I try not to let it overtake me. I pray and ask Gods protection over him every night as well. I do check his breathing if I wake up. Worrying is part of being a mommy.
Glad to hear he is doing well.
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