Well, these stupid motha' fucka's think I'm making it up. I don't know why I'm on such a journey to get these fuckers to believe me. They think I just went to the doctor to get more attention. I didn't even tell them anything about. They found out that I was going to a mental health clinic and started asking questions. Otherwise I would have never spoken. How can they think I'm doing it for attention when I tried to run away from them? They don't think I have a problem. Why don't they even believe my doctor. If I'm put on two or three different kinds of fuckin' pills, how can these people think I'm making it up. I wish I could do this all alone and not have any fuckin' stigma about it. I am normal and I can be normal and still have an illness. Why don't they say these kinds of things about people with diabetes? Why don't they see someone after surgery taking painkillers as a cry for attention? I don't want to be on medication, but I don't want this roller coaster anymore. I just wish they could see that I'm not some contagious disease, but I'm just ill. They think the doctor's just prescribe my medication to get money... that hurt... that fuckin' hurts!!!!!!!!!
Its called "narrow-minded" and the only thing to do is try to ignore their comments. I know how hard that is, trust me. But paying heed to them only makes you worse. Its near to impossible for someone who doesn't have this disease to understand. I have the same problem with my mother. She believes I have a problem, but she has trouble coping and helping b/c she just doesn't get it, and sometimes she makes me worse b/c of it. You just have to worry about you and try not to let it get to you.
JessicaRabbit