Godholdsme's Journal

Abilify sucks!!! I got off of it without telling my doctor. I have been having a sedative effect from it really bad and now he tells me that this feeling can last up to 18 days because it has a slow action. I knew I didn't want to go on this to begin with. I should have just said no. I had a feeling it would make me feel crapy. Another thing is it was making me eat like crazy and I gained 5 pounds. Since I went off I don't even feel half that hungry and my dr says oh really that's unusuall. Well I am unusuall I am not your tipical bipolar and everyone is different. Man I like him as a dr but sometimes he just pisses me off. He wrote me an exuse for a leave of abscence from work. I'm not going to use it it's already Friday so what does it matter one more day of work. I have dragged my ass eveyday last week and this week feeling like I am under water and drowning and managed to not make a mistake. Well not yet anyway. But the days have been long and sucky. I have that wedding tommorrow just might atttend the ceremony only and come home. talk to myself more later..