capribella99's Journal

Today (the 19th) was roxie's fourth birthday.  We celebrated by lounging around the house, snuggling and eating dog treats (well just her on that one).  It was so nice to spend a day with my birthday girl :)

At night, I babysat for Nora, my neighbor's daughter.  If I had one wish in the world, it would be to have a kid like Nora.  Everyone says you love your own kids in a way you can't love anyone else's, but I can't imagine loving a child more than Nora.  Just seeing the smile on her face when I walk up her sidewalk is enough to make the worst day in the world better.  She is the sweetest, happiest, most lovable child in the world.  Her brother, Eamon, is equally amazing.  So bubbly, just learning to walk -- all drooly and cuddly.  They're both so happy and such a joy to be around.  They have such wonderful parents, who work so hard to make them happy, well-adjusted, healthy little kids.

Anyway, Nora and I did some crafts tonite after E went to bed.  We made a holiday wind chime.  We took those really little mini terra cotta pots that you can buy at Michaels and spray painted them white.  Then we turned them upside down so they looked like bells instead of pots.  Then, we painted pumpkins and black cats on them, and wrote "boo" on them.  I found these cute little jingles shaped like ghosts, so we used black and orange string to hang the ghosts from inside the upside down pots.  Then, we tied them all together, and tied the string to a plastic ring.  We hung it outside so it would jingle in the wind... she LOVED it :)

Anyway, it was a great day.  Hanging with my pup all day, hanging with Nora at night.  Stinks that Nick left for a 2 week business trip, but I sure had good company tonite :)  Lucky me :) 

Nothing much new has been going on with me.  I've been looking for jobs, keeping at least fairly healthy -- celebrating that I passed the bar!!  We got some new pillows for our couches, so that was exciting.   In two weeks I'm going to Richmond for the weekend -- not really sure what Richmond has to offer, but we shall see!

 I've been doing ok with the walking.  Sometimes I feel like this weight is going no where.  I look at my grandparents, who are definitely obese, and I get scared.  I want to prevent that from happening, but I feel like I am not really sure what to do.  My diet is not the model of health, but it is not indulgent.  At least I don't think it is.  I feel like I've also gotten better on the portion front.  Maybe I'm just kidding myself.  It feels like this weight isn't going anywhere, despite the walking and a healthy diet, I think.  I'm getting frustrated, and trying to refocus myself... and not get off track.  I guess I need to be more dilligent about the walking and watching what I eat.  And maybe I am just kidding myself.  I mean, I'm not eating like, 15 grams of fat a day.  I'd guess 45 and I thought that was ok.  Maybe for me it's not, or maybe I'm eating more.  I guess I'm going to have to monitor this more cloesly.  I thought i was burning mroe than I was taking in.