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I have been have a rough couple of days. No real reason I just feel awful. Today I had all this homework I had to do and I really couldn't get it done. I just feel so overwhelemd by my other problemes. I have to have it done tomrrow morning and it's not done. Oh well, I just dont' care that much cause I can't deal with it. I can't deal with much. I don't know what to do or how to explain why I am doing so bad to others?????
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I need a little advice so if people who know me would reply to this soon that would be great! : ) Today is my birthday. I was supposed to go hang out with a group of friends but I don't know if I should or not. In this group of friends is a guy I like. Yesterday I found out that he is dating someone. : ( And he is bringing her tomorrow to hang out with us. Soooo...I don't really want to hang out with them...I guess...I think...I don't know. But I also feel bad. Some friends from out of town are coming to visit. And I said I would come to hang out with them. And it's not like I can explain to everyone why I'm not coming. Plus I don't really have anything else to do for my birthday. My other friends I could hang out with are out of town for the weekend. Any advice on whether I should go or what I could do for my bday???? Thanks.
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Happy birthday...I don't know what to say, I did that once with an ex. I went to friends wedding and he and his girlfriend were there. I felt much better after I met her and saw he was happy. But that was just me so I am sorry that I can not give better advice.
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Happy birthday!!! That's a tough one. I'm not sure how big your group of friends is but maybe where some friends of yours are coming from out of town, you'll be so busy catching up with them that you won't really notice him much once you start talking. I'm sure you'll notice him at first of course, that's only natural but maybe everyone will be so focused on your birthday and you having fun that it won't matter. Just a thought. Either way, hope you have a wonderful birthday!
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Always hang out. Just have fun and enjoy YOUR day! It's okay if he's dating someone else. It doesn't mean they're getting married. :)
Never let anyone hold you back. Remember, it's about you celebrating your birth and they get to come along for the ride.
I LOVE my birthdays. It's a day I get to spoil myself. It means one more age I get to be! Go have fun and FOCUS ON THAT! Besides, the most attractive thing is being confident and enjoying yourself without worrying about others.
I have been proposed to 25 times (yes, 2 then 5) now. I clearly know how to get, and keep, the guy, if I want him. ;-p
I had a pretty difficult day today. This afternoon I kinda freaked out. I have never gone in and got tested for STD's or pregnancy since the rape. Every once in awhile I start to really worry about that especially being pregnant. I don't really have signs of being pregnant but I still worry about it a lot. One thing that I'm a little confused about is that I have gained a little weight since the rape and some of it is in my stomach. Which is a little weird for me. However, I do remember starting to gain a tiny bit of weight in my stomach before the rape. So I guess maybe it is just cause I have been eating a lot for comfort. Anyways, today I totally freaked out thinking I was pregnant so I decided to go somewhere where I could walk in and get a test. I had to wait a long time but I got one and I also got tested for STD's. My pregnancy test came back negative. I wont know my other results for a little while. I also made an appointment to have my "yearly" test done. I need that too. I'm glad I went I feel better. I also want to go to see a therapist. I think that will help me too. I just need to get the courage up to do that. I just hope I don't have to freak out to do that.
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I completely understand your fear. I hope that you are able to get your results soon. There is nothing that I can just say to make you feel better. God, I wish there were. I am here and if you have questions feel free to ask. If it helps the pressure lessons over time. Hang in there. SA
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Hi Marissa, I totally understand what you're going through. I ended up going to the doctor a few days after my rape because I had a high fever (over 101) and thought I was getting sick. Turned out it was just the stress of everything I was going through that made me sick. Anyways, when I was at the doctor, I broke down and told her what happened and that I was scared I could be pregnant. She YELLED at me that I should be more worried about STDs! My thought process was if I was pregnant, it would affect another human being but if it was STDs it would just affect me. Thankfully I was neither (and I retested for everything a few years later since AIDS doesn't always show up right away and still nothing thankfully) but I couldn't believe the way that doctor treated me. Anyways, I'm so glad for you that you're not pregnant since I can tell you didn't want to be just like I didn't. I will pray that all of your tests come back fine. Hang in there....I know the waiting part sucks. I'm here if you need to talk. *hugs* Angie
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Take a step back hon. Break things down into chuncks you can handle. See if that works. If it doesn't then you may just have to let everything go and slowly pick up the pieces as you can handle them.
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I was there last week. Hang in there.
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I know how you feel. I have an internet Math class right now and I am barely scraping by. I only need 5 more credits to graduate and it feels like 500. I also feel like I can't explain my situation to other people, so I don't even try. Just know that I am here with you and that if you need anything all you have to do is ask =)
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