rab57's Journal

Sunday pm - I can't quite believe that I'm still OK. I have been in this state for quite a few weeks now, and just hope that I have turned that corner and can maintain this level of well being.

Had a visit from Carols brother, his wife and their three children (8, 7 and 1 year old) who were staying in the village in an apartment, and so was kept busy for the last couple of weeks - went out with them, babysat, and took them fishing even! Everything went so well - only a very slight background feeling of panic a couple of times, but nothing like I would have been a year ago. The business - PC support/fixing, has started slowly, but I did have three paying jobs last week, and felt really elated about that - and yes I did manage to "fix"all three - and they were all callouts too - so that meant me driving to strange places - something I definately wouldn't have been able to do last year. Makes me feel really good about the progress.

I hope that everyone else out there is coping as well as they can. I'm here if needed

Sept 30th - late - Can't quite believe that I'm still feeling OK - the occasional wobble, but who doesn't? - seems to be an almost permanent state of mind now - that is the amazing thing. It seems to have crept up on me without me realising it - not that I'm complaining at all :-) I think that the meditation and yoga have certainly helped - feeling physically and mentally fit (well as much as an oldie as me can be - lol). I really hope that the worst is behind now and I can concentrate on helping those of you out there that need the odd word of encouragement/sympathy/anything else I can think of! Pay back for everyone out there that cares and has cared about my ups and downs :-)

 Still getting used to not being so hot - only got up to 28C in the sunshine today (making you jealous or what - lol) We have had a week of greyish skies with a little bit of the wet stuff too - but the ground soaks it up as fast as it comes down. The garden has suddenly sprouted a low level of green stuff - lots of little somethings - will have to wait a week or two before they become recognisable - probably weeds though knowing my gardening luck. The bananas I planted are growing well - the biggest is over two meters high - they were just little plants when I put them in (they were given as a present from a neighbour who was thining his out and he gave us the plantlets that he took out) - so I can get some things to grow ;-)

I hope everyone is having as good a week as their physical/emotional health will allow.

Hugs all round.

15th Sept - late - Just a quick entry to say that I'm still OK and feeling pretty good. I have stopped taking Lorazepam in the morning, and just on Citalopram at night now. Have the occasional wobbly moment, but that is OK.

Thankfully it has gotten a bit cooler now - still sunny most days, but night time temperatures down to 18C, so at least a decent nights sleep is possible without the air con and fans going. I'll be complaining of the cold next week :-)

These last two weeks have been good - got things done, and getting more energy back to tackle other stuff. Have finally got round to putting the business on track too - anyone needing help with their PCs you know who to call - and if anyone has any comments on the new website - WWW.PCTORROX.COM  - I would be more than happy to receive them - and please be honest - I'd rather get it right ASAP as I think it will help me feel better too! I'm not touting for business here, but would appreciate feedback - really - lol.

I hope everyone has a good day tomorrow, and feels better for it too. Hugs all round.