Leeann01's Journal

The past 24 hours have been horrible. I didnt go to bed till after 12 last night then I was back awake by 3. Sean told me to try to get some rest he would get up with the kids.but I still didnt doze back off till they got on the bus. Then when I did i had a dream about momma. I dreamed that I talked to her on the phone. I told her the next time I came up there I wanted her to fix me some fried potatoes, butterbeans, biscuits and fatback like she used to fix when I was a kid. She told me she would. Then I was standing at the front door of her apartment. I knocked on the door and a man answered it. I told him I know you dont know me but do you mind if I walk through your kitchen. He told me no go ahead. When I went in the kitchen I saw momma (plain as day). She was cooking the food I asked for. She went in to the cabinet where she kept her can stuff to get something. And I told her momma you know you have to leave and leave these people alone. She said "Why I'm not dead" and I told her yeas momma you are. She sat down in a chair she had at the stove and I hugged her and told her that I LOVE HER. She started crying and kept saying but I'm not dead. and I just kept saying momma you have to leave these people alone. That almost killed me. It hurt me so bad to see her crying and saying but I'm not dead. I dont know what this dream meant but I'm affraid to go to sleep because of it.