TomB's Journal

Havn't been back for awhile. Been consumed with this mess. Went to the man's place of work that my wife says she's been emailing only... Not sure why. I knew he would lie. At least he knows that I know. Found out the STD tests I had performed were too early. Have to get them done again. Contacted higher priced attourney. Went to see professional marriage counselor. Female this time. Says she will need to see me individually to heal myself before any chance of healing marriage. Says she can help me get rid of emotional baggage, (thoughts and pictures of my wife and her lover), in my head. I'm all for it. Both my wife and I attended first session. Wife didn't tell the honest truth though. Anyway, the counselor convinced me to wait another 3 weeks before seeking the divorce. She said to wait until my head is cleared. For $70.00 a pop, I'm all for it. So tired of this crap day after day after day...Pretty much feel dead inside. Counselor did say that before I move on I will not be happy until I get rid of all my "baggage". I understand that. Truly want to get rid of it. Will update on the progress with the counselor. I kind of have a little hope that she will do me good.