after a big gap
April 10, 2008 4:45am
well i locked myself away for a bit... just coming back again... had a course of sessions with a really good councellor... so respectful of …
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About Me
I am a mother of three adult/nearly adult children & grandmother to one.My philosophy can be described as the fusion of opposites. There isn't enough space here to fully explain what i mean or how i came to think like this although i'm sure that in time as i come to understand more about you, you may understand more about me. Am into alternative healing/spiritual growth. Have had many paranormal experiences which i stand by to this day. I hope to make a difference in this world.
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Journal Entry for June 18, 2007
June 18, 2007 9:57am
Feeling a bit better than i have done these last few days but don't want to go out. Just the thort of it makes me feel... i dont know really... …
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Journal Entry for June 15, 2007
June 15, 2007 4:47am
Well smoking marijuana helped take the edge off how shit i felt but brings its own problems because of my addiction to it. Once i start, i just cant …
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Journal Entry for June 11, 2007
June 11, 2007 7:26pm
Not sure how i feel. Numb since earlier today because i had a smoke. Its been a bit of a rollercoaster what with the kids being angry at me and bad …
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
sexually abused by grandfather from 3yrs old(poss.earlier)until 13/14yrs old. Raped on many occassions because of vulnerability. Family not supportive, abusive infact! No longer see them. Children also abused by family members. No support despite pleadings. Took one rape case to court. Pointless! Never again! Have isolated for years. Just coming out of that isolation now. Determined to make a positive difference in this crazy world. Theres loads more but not enough space;sure u get gest anyway.
Treatments
- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- seek occasionally. helps me to focus on what i need to do.
- Prozac Not Working
- made me flipant & rude & manic
- Remeron Not Working
- accidently overdosed and stopped breathing. don't trust medications anymore
Close Marijuana Addiction & Recovery
My brother gave me my first spliff@15. Usage slowly crept up. Had a very difficult time in my life & it became the cushion to comfort me. Smoked so much i had to grow it. Not to sell, i smoked the lot. Checked into rehab. Smoke MUCH less now but still an addict with addict behaviour. Don't know if i'll stop but for now i need to keep a check on usage... don't want it to get like before (quarter oz skunk daily)
Treatments
- Detox Working / Worked
- I had a shit time at rehab but i am grateful for the chance to be weed-free for 5 months, and it did help me reduce my usage enormously.
Open Rape
I can't remember acurately how many times i've been raped. The last two were the ones that made me withdraw big time. Trying to come out of myself again now.
Treatments
- Rape Counseling Not Working
- I was just unlucky... the councellor just kept putting her words and thoughts in my mouth and in my head.
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