KaeCee's Journal

my probs compared to other peoples just seem so stupid and pathetic..

FORMAL THIS WEEKEND!!!!
super stressed, trying to get my mates organised lol i dont know why i think i can organise them when they cant even organise themselves!!!
:D
but, im getting my hair done at a hairdressers whom ive never been to before, and she doesnt know i have trich... so what am i going to do???
do you think i should tell her tht i pull my hair out strand by strand?
or should i tell her something else?
or not say anything at all?
what if she says something to me about my thinning hair!?
what would i do then?
i would be mortified!!


so il let you know how i am feeling for andrew.. again lol
you probably have noticed that yeah.. i like him
but i dont at the same time, if u know what i mean?
atm, i could go either way..
i could seriously fall for him again..
or
i could just stop liking him at all..
and only see him as a friend.. a very close friend who i have a past with.. hmmm

so, coz, i dunno, hes semi distancing himself from me again, why must he do that!?
does he not know how much it kills me inside, each time i just get a short "i dont wanna talk to you right now" type of answer.. or is it coz hes angry at me for talking to his best m8 whom i went to primary with?
maybe, and i seriously doubt this... maybe hes falling for me again and is scared to show his feelings.. LOL i make myself laugh, the reason in getting over him is coz he doesnt like me! at all, like tht anymore.. i have to deal with it and move on.. but how am i suppose to do that?

oh life is hard when ur a teenage girl.
Maybe im back sliding again..
which is what i tend to do..
ive been feeling so far from God lately its not funni, im not being fullfilled at my church or youth group, im feeling depressed most of the time, i DO NOT want to slip back into my old ways of self harming and dragged down by trich...

*sigh.*