Journal Entry for October 22, 2007
October 22, 2007 2:25pm
I found out that my ex and his girlfriend are having a baby...I'm crushed!
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October 11, 2007 11:02pm
The last time I spoke to my ex was about three months ago. We had a dog together and he became too much for me to handle. Before I started …
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October 9, 2007 9:44pm
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May 28, 2007 2:38am
It early in the morning and my mind is still reeling from the days events. It seemed like everything came crashing down all at once. My best …
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wow really thats great i'm jealous never been had a chance once but got spirder bite grrr so the doctor wouldnt let me go man that totally sucked to man i was soo mad lol, have a great time take pic's ok t2ysoon hugs ,donna
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sry to hear ya not been on much me either for a few days and hope you are well also me , well lets just say its always something going on lol, hugsssss
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Welcome. Sounds like you have let too many people have leverage over you. Please don't let those in your life dictate your mood. You are successful, doing great in school. Of course we all would like to have friends that don't abandon us nor a parent that seems uncaring or non-understanding, that is why we have to be strong for ourselves and pick and choose wisely of who we let into our heart. I hope you begin to feel better and I know all to well about the "type" of situation you are describing, not the specifics, but the generalities. Take care. Jim
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i'm happy we are gonna be friends welcome to my huge family and we all help are family (peeps)ok love ya hope to get to talk soon,dona
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Close GERD & Heartburn
Treatments
- Aciphex Not Working
- Provided little to no relief and caused migraines.
- Antacids Not Working
- These help for about 15-20 minutes but not good if you have reflux all day, like I do.
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- I tried for a while but after test were run my doctor said my case is so severe it doesn't matter what I eat.
- Carafate Not Working
- Provided no relief
- Dietary Modification Somewhat Helpful
- I got no reflux relief but dietary change helped my stomach digest better.
- Nexium Not Working
- Provided little relief but didn't repair esophagus lining at all.
- Pepcid Not Working
- Same result as antacids, short term relief.
- Pepto-Bismol Not Working
- Tried this before I tried prescriptions, no relief at all.
- Prevacid Not Working
- Same result as Nexium and Prilosec, little relief and no damage repair.
- Prilosec Not Working
- Same results as the Nexium, little relief and no damage repair.
- Protonix Not Working
- Same result as Nexium and Prilosec, and Prevacid little relief and no damage repair.
- Reglan Not Working
- After taking two digestive tests, one with Reglan and one without, the doctor found no effect.
- Tagamet Not Working
- Same result as Nexium and Prilosec, Prevacid, and Protonix little relief and no damage repair.
Close Fibromyalgia
After an injury to my spine, cervical, thorasic, and lumbar as well as my head/temple I was tested and diagnosed with Fibromyalgia.
Treatments
- Acupressure Not Working
- I tried this twice but I was in too much pain to be touched.
- Acupuncture Considering
- Something about having needles visible in my body freaks me out a little.
- Adderall Not Working
- This made me unable to sleep, more than usual, it made me drop from a size 6 to a size 2 (which I don't like), it made my heart beat fast and it seemed to other like I was drugged out
- Aqua Therapy Not Working
- Although I love my hot tub, it only provides temporary relief, like heat pads, once I get up out of the hot tub or take the heat pad off the pain comes back 10 fold.
- Cyclobenzaprine Not Working
- Tried this for a while but didn't get enough relief so my doctor changed my meds around
- Duragesic Patch Not Working
- I found no relief from this, the only thing I got was annoyed from trying to put the patch on properly
- Effexor Not Working
- Gave me bad mood swings and no results.
- Elavil Not Working
- I didn't notice any relief, just drowsiness.
- Heat Not Working
- Just like the hot tub, it only provides temporary relief and once I get up out of the hot tub or take the heat pad off the pain comes back 10 fold.
- Lyrica Too Soon to Tell
- I'm on this now in place of Topomax. I like it better than Topomax because it doesn't give me more tingling and numbness in my hands but its too soon to tell if Lyrica works better.
- Neurontin Not Working
- This didn't provide any relief and it made me feel floaty and dizzy
- TENS Not Working
- Caused way too much pain during treatment, had to stop
- Ultram Considering
- I have some friends who have used this for pain and they have had good results but I'm leary of changing meds again.
- Vitamin B12 Too Soon to Tell
- I don't know that this helps much but it can't be bad for my body.
- Zanaflex Not Working
- I've been on this for over a year and a half. It didn't work much before and doesn't work at all now.
- Oxycodone Somewhat Helpful
- This helps some but I've been on it a while and its losing its strength.
- Topamax Not Working
- All this did was make my hands tingle and feel numb, which I already have and don't need more of. It also caused tingling in my face.
- Mobic Not Working
- I wasn't on this long so it might have helped but I have bad stomach problems and Mobic made my stomach bleed.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I married a man who I thought loved me but 3 days after we were married I found out the real reason he married me, my life for 3 years had been a lie and I had to figure out how to get out of this physically and emotionally abusive relationship. I did and I've never been the same again, I can't seem to deal.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Not Working
- My ex requested therapy and exited therapy after one day, he didn't want to hear what he did wrong he wanted someone to validate his feelings about me.
- Family Therapy Not Working
- We tried marriage therapy, as I stated before, and that didn't help at all.
- Forgiveness Not Working
- I don't hate him but I can't forgive me. What he did to me forever changed me and I can't get back on track.
- Leave Working / Worked
- I did get away from him and in a way I feel better but in so many other ways I feel alone, scared and worse off.
- Love Not Working
- I can't trust anyone. I see my family, go to school and thats it. I stay home most of the time because another man can't hurt me like my ex did if I'm home safe. I've tried to date but don't know how and don't know if I can let someone close to me again.
- Music Working / Worked
- Music has helped me relate. I find songs that relate to how I feel or how I did feel and sometimes it helps.
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- I have a cat that I had previously and I just bought a new puppy. Its helping some, I guess.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- I have to read something that has nothing to do with love, marriage, or relationships otherwise I end up in tears with a bad feeling in my stomach.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- I lost all my friends when I left my ex. I have my family but they don't really understand. I tried to explain the severity and some get it but others think I should have stuck it out no matter how miserable I was.
- Support Groups Considering
- I looked into it in my town but my ex knows a lot of people and I don't want it to get back to him that I'm talking about our situation. I lost all my friends when I left him, so all I have is my family and me.
- Talking Considering
- I think talking might help but I don't have anyone to talk to and I don't want to make new friends and burden them with this. I don't want to sound pathetic.
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- It's been over a year and time hasn't healed any of my wounds. I'm not sure if in time it will or if in time I will become more numb.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was raped by a stranger when I was 18 years old and I never got over it. I sought help but it didn't work. It happened to me again when I was 21 but this time it wasn't a stranger it was my boyfriend.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- Leaving worked but it only prolonged the problem. Now I have issues trusting someone enough to have sex with them.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Music helps a little because its something I can relate to. I find songs that describe what I've been through and how some day I hope to heal.
- Talking Not Working
- I'm not allowed to talk to anyone about it. Anytime I try or someone asks me about it they end up telling me to stop because they can't take it...what about me!
- Abuse Counseling Not Working
- I tried therapy afterwards but it didn't help. It was nice to talk to someone but she did nothing to really help me.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My ex boyfriend tried to kill me, three times. He also emotionally abused me. I went to therapy about it but it didn't help. About 4-5 years later, when I was married, my husband physically, emotionally, and sexually abused me. I divorced him but I feel doomed in relationships.
Treatments
- Divorce Working / Worked
- When I got up the nerve to leave it stopped the abuse with my ex husband but when I tried to leave my ex boyfriend he tried to kill me and I had to move away for a while until it was safe. He (my ex boyfriend) still bothers me now from time to time, even after so long.
- Forgiveness Too Soon to Tell
- I've tried to forgive my ex husband but its been hard. I've tried for years to forgive my ex boyfriend but when someone tried to kill you, not once but three times, it hard to forive that.
- Leave Working / Worked
- When I got up the nerve to leave it stopped the abuse with my ex husband but when I tried to leave my ex boyfriend he tried to kill me and I had to move away for a while until it was safe. He (my ex boyfriend) still bothers me now from time to time, even after so long.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Music helps me see I'm not alone. The songs I listen to most is "Sober" by Kelly Clarkson and "Love is Blind" by Eve
- Talking Not Working
- I don't have anyone to talk to about this, either instance. Anytime I've tried to talk to family or friends they stop me because its too hard for them to hear, but I don't think they realize how hard it was to go through and how hard it still is in the aftermath.
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