nanadee's Journal

Going to try to finish writing about the 1 year anniversary of my angel John and all the suffering he endured during the last few weeks of his life here with us.

On the 17th of November he called me around 9 am and wanted to know if I was busy and could I take him to the doctor. He was having terrible pains in his stomach on the left side and it hurt all the way thru to his back. I immediately said yes and that I would be right over. When I got there his wife Jamie was leaving for work and said she would call later to check on him. I drove him to the nearest emergency room. Which I have regretted to this day. I wish I had driven one more mile down the road to the other hospital......that he was eventually transferred to a couple weeks later because this one wasn't equipped to give him the care he needed.

A lot of the day is a blur to me. I remember him crying a lot with the pain. He even bit his own hand. The doctor determined that he had pancreatitis. They did an ultasound to see if it was caused by blockage by a gall stone. They finally determined that it was caused by his medication  seroquel. He had taken it for about 3 years to help with sleep and anxiety. He had blood work done and nothing was ever tested for his pancreas I was so confused. 

The pain must have been so unbearable for him. He cried most of the day. He called Jamie and I wish he hadn't. She immediately got on a computer at work looked up pancreatitis called him back and explained it to him and he was so upset. He got off the table and laid in the floor crying "I'm going to die" I was crying trying to console him. I"M SUPPOSED TO GO FIRST NOT YOU!!! 

Any ways Lewis finally got home from work and I got him there with us. Jamie got there and we left around 6 pm. He was still in the er. She called us around 11 that night and said they had to put him in ICU. I think I was up all night.

I'm going to stop my story here tonight I'm getting overwhelmed with emotions.