praisingheart777's Journal

It is been going on for the last couple of days.. This depression is very bad... worse then i think its ever been... Life seems to be sliding from under my feet and it has bout swept me away.....

Thoughts that would devestate some of the people i know, but for others its just another soul gone....

No one to talk to because they think you have completely lost your mind, or you just need to talk to a counselor, instead of just being there as a listening ear...  I'm tired of having to deal with this and its never going to end on its own....  Maybe its time to run and never come back.... just leave it all behind.... no peace, no joy, just thoughts that shatter the soul and kill the body....

As i look at it all in perspective, it is a life that is worth nothing... and could never be used for the glory of God..... people say things happen for a reason, and it may be true, but some people can only take so much.. then they get pushed to the limit.. then its ..... THE.... END...

Never to truely know the truth, love, or peace.....

Some people just give up on you and dont care if they ever talk to you, while others really do want to know what is going on and want to be there for you.... To that ONE  person ( Dorothy), you truely are my best friend... and i thank you for everything.... And i wish that some people i met, i never did, because i put my trust in you too many times.... but your memory is fading dimmer and dimmer until you are never going to be a memory again.....

And to the man who hurt me, one day you will get what you deserve.... i wont be there to see you get your punishment but you get exactly what you did to me.... the torment i live with and the pushing away you will someday be alone and understand exactly the hell i go through.....