Sakura's Journal

I think I know why I'm having such a hard time psychologically/emotionally. I'm already at my limit dealing with death. Since 8th grade I've had to deal with 7 deaths (I'm a senior in high school now) plus two deaths prior to that. I'm talking people in my life, not like celebrities or anything like that. I can't deal with any more people dying. Yet I'm forced into it as my grandmother, who's really important to me and central to my whole family (and the only one I have) has only a 50% chance of surviving the next 5 years due to congestive heart failure. and even if she survives those five years, she won't have much longer.