Sakura's Journal

I no longer retain the ability to walk or stand. my legs give out or i tip over. i went to the doctor three times between today and yesterday. they drew blood and i'll know the results in a week. I might ask for an MRI. but today the doc i saw told me that is was all psychological and that i should see a psychiatrist and get put on a mood stabilizer. then she gave me a script for a cane and told me to go to a pharmacy. a) pharmacies can't do that (i know, i went and they were like "we can't fill scripts for equipment) and b) a cane won't help me walk (they had a few for sale and i tried them out, but still fell over). i have to say i'm a little scared, kind of tired and very sick of my body being fucked up. the only "upside" is that for the last week i've been nauseous so i've been eating less and have been losing weight.