terri44's Journal

my comp is acting really weird when it comes to this journal area. Anyway, just want to say that I did see my T today and wow, I totally did not realize how much stuff I have pent up inside me. He told me that I am burnt out and totally stressed and full of anxiety. He said I should try to relax, well, tried that and failed miserably. I used to enjoy life, laugh alot, people said i had a great sense of humor, etc now I feel nothing, complete emptiness. I worry about my family/friends/dog, last night i did try to relax, but did I? Ya for about 2hrs. then ran around cleaning and picking up around  the house. He asked me about my eating disorder and we didn't go into that one. He also said I have severe PTSD. Great, huh? I honestly feel like I am having a nervous breakdown. I have so much to be grateful for, wonderful husband, son, dog and friends here and other friends online and one in real time so why, oh , why do I feel like I am spiraling down, down into a black hole. It's just so frustrating. Anyway, enough about me, hope everyone is doing ok. Thinking of u all.

                                                              Love u all,

                                                               terry