freeflowpoet's Journal

I'm f**king ropable right now, for 3 weeks I've been put thru the ringer over these stat decks - told yes we'll (my step mum and brother) do them to I can't do them due to injury and then hospital visits to her husband to I've written them out on scrap paper to see if they are alright to I need to add stuff...I was meant to go around this morning to take a look at what she has written, I rang her to make sure this was ok and I got told "I still have stuff to add, can you drop by on your way to work tonight (No I don't work tonight and she knows that) to Oh I'll drop them around your mums or something". I need them by tomorrow at 3pm this has been dragged out for 3 fu*ken weeks now and I've been on a roller coaster of emotions and flashbacks over this, no one seems to give a damn about what it's doing to me - I've had the comments made "oh her husband's dying, have you ever thought she wants to spend some time with him" - the guy's not dying like right now, yeah he's sick but not dying, he could be around for years, to "she's a very busy lady with her kids and work" - I don't doubt that but 3 weeks come on am I being unreasonable it was her that promised to do them in the first place!

I'm begining to seriously doubt seeing these stat decks done by 3pm tomorrow...if you don't want to do something tell me straight out don't screw with my emotions all over again. I guess I'm not worth having a chance at justice opening her eyes for once and seeing me! But an abuser is worth not being spoken about where it counts - to a judge. :(