JJGestapo's Journal

Haha, the highlight of my night had to be talking with Katie.  I forgot how much fun it could be staying up like we were little kids again breaking the bedtime rules.  Not only that, but in our separation at schol, we kind of got wrapped up in our work and stuff and never got teh chance to talk like we coudl all the time in highschool.  It made me realize that even after everything that happened in our freshman year, we were still close.  We had no trouble opening up about our little kinks in our relationship, intimate details that only really good friends could trust each other with.

 Talking with her may not have answered all my questions, but it gave me a sense hearing her talk about her problems or what little stories, that I wasn't the only one out there with problems.  Not only that, but it gave me the further motivation to express myself more with my boyfriend, with whom I have been going out with 1 year and 5 months now.

But again, I run into the issue of my boyfriend.  He needs work, and its not just myself.  He is quite down on himself, and I think what would help him out mentlly and physically and emotionally, is doing soemthign different, like making up an exercise schedule, biuld soem muscle and work off excess, make a lot fo friends, even if they aren't close but just someone to socialize with, get into a regular sleeping eating schedule, doing his home work when it is assigned and not slacking off until the last minute, or just not caring about his work or studying, getting help when he needs it, you know, things that will just improve your overall feeling of self.  Like Katie and I were talking about how we need our girl time talk, and to just hang out and relax, so we were thinking about working out at the gym together on some days or just hanging out.  Some unwind time from our guys, despite how much we love them they can just get to be too much, like anyone ;D

It just felt great to be home for this short stay, and also to be with my friends and family in the places I know and recognize.  I am also anxious to go bacl to school though to try to salvage my poor self and see my boyfriend again since I haven't seen him or talked to him voice to voice since sometime in December when we left school.  Know what is sad too, I don't even remember if we had made love or not.......haha, oh well, I guess I will find out!

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