JJGestapo's Journal

Well, my onyl complaint with DS at this point -no saved draft for journals.  Over 5 times I have bene mid lengthy journalentires taht I at least spend an hour or more thinking about and venting to, to all lose......in one fatal click.  Wether it be accidental back button or page error/refresher or I suddenly need to relog in and lose all progress -well, it sends me into a fit of rage that makes me even more upset than I had started XD

Anyways, onto stuff, and lets hope fo rno errors or random crap ptoday wich makes me lose my progress XD....well I had this horribel friend dinner paryt this past weekend taht totally and I felt has SEVERLY damaged a friendship of mien with my semi-best??? friend, Sam, btu I tried explaining it once on here until ym page nuked so maybeits teh divine power telling me to drop it XD  Anyways, I always get this feeling from her (as you can tell I feel a bit sour towards her) that she is always better than anyone.  Her hari is thicker or softer and smells pretty liek her shampoo (which  envy XD since my hair always...smells like, graesy, clean, or even just wahsed:P), she has soft skin (unliek me who is quiet batterd by young puberty and just family natural imperect flesh), she is stronger than me, her perosnality is far more outgoing than mine, she seems to be liked by all( I think the key word to highlight might be 'think'),  she is not birdened by a boyfriend but has these awesome flings (supposedly), she is super pretty like her mom whom she looks just like -who is a slut btw, nothing I would be proud to be or look like b/c of that fact), is always doing soem fun amazing thigns every weekend, always getting drunk, think she is impressive b/c she loves tequilla (even though supposedly from her btw, knocks her down on her as s/bc she doesnt handle it too well) ro can pound all this alcohol down, this she is super smart (wich yes, she is quite smart, but to the point where she is beligerant about it and will argue over somethign that she is wrong about but will fight to prove she is right about just so she can be right in her own midn and make you look stupid)......anyways, too much.

Well, since a rainstorm washed work out a half hour early for us today, I said I wanted to be dropped off at my usual spot insteda of spending teh next hour with her wiatign to be picked up wich with all the gas crisis thing going on -is further away from my home and out of the way for my mom to pick me up from.  Anyways, I taked to Rory for about 20 minutes on the phone, then I super paked my belongings into my backpage and lunchpale, swapped out for dry shoes, hung my wet ones from my backpack looking like a dirty hitchhiker into teh pricechopper in the plaza I was at, and decided to splurge.  Yes yes I knwo, its not worth blwoing my precious money from my paycheck on consumables, btu I wanted to, I almost had to XD

I am on this kick to do girly shopping soemtiem soon -buy facial creams lotions, perfume especially, new undies, bras, shoes a lil outfit or something, hell i have even been planning to do a spa day thing and jsut absorb myself, super splurge soon.  I know, its out of my nature, btu being in a relationship, becoming older and wanting the attention of a male[s] requires soem preening, and sadly, not every guy thinking a chick smelling like Old Spice is necessarily hot or attractive....well for me smelling like that is nice b/c I love teh scent, but Im a tomboy now turning a bit fluff.  Well, i am gettign distracted...anywho, I like to get all cleane dup dressed up and I love feeling preety and well fo course, looking sexy and beautiful and confident, who doesnt?

So here I am fresh from a hot, muggy, muddy, wet, humid day or landscaping, with my backpack, lunchpale, and oh yes, I forgot, my makeshift plant hodler for my baby fern I save din its used stewards coffee cup XD in my huge boy shorts, and dirty wifebeater and watershoes turned to work shoes, walking through a food grocery store aroudn 3:30pm XD  I picked up a hand basket, my baby fern set inside nestled in its coffee cup, browsing isels for what excatly I was thinkign of buying.  I bought this aweosme handsoap, buy-1-get-1-free of this awesome honey-milk scent, 2 POM tea drinks, 1 unknowingly 'light' but teh flavor still appealing, Ponds facial cleaning cream wich is super smooth and awesome, a pack of sushi for later tonight, and Casmopolitan mag with teh latest quiet informative sex poll and soem preety cool tips and stories.  yes, i gto ymself a girl comfy evenign set up tonightm and yes, i am in a much better mood than this past weekend and monday/tuesday escapade.

Hence my latest girly up craze, I feel so much better when I feel like I am looking better.  Maybe I will splurge on soem bronzy makeup and blush, mascara, designer perfume, more cocoa butter to smooth out -hell I already picked up a new shampoo and conditioner and it felt great, and also a new girly-type deordeant (insteda of my usual XD). I just love doing little thigns to feel better.

I have also been browsing up deviant art every day and I am feeling more inspired to write and draw.  I am off to play my onlien game with my sweety and Seimon, but yes, i am feeling better indulging a bit in my inner lady XD