Quirkygemini's Journal

Okay, so today I go to the surgeon for a consult(to back up a bit) I had a stroke at the end of December, my fourth and it affected my left side, so I just thougt the problems with that hand was due to that, but about three months ago a small lump formed on my wrist and I asked my crazy ex-doctor about it and he said don't worry, it will go away, so anyways when I went to see this new doctor this week, it had gotten a lot bigger and he told me I had a ganglion cyst and needed to see the surgeon, so today I go and find out that is what it is, they don't go away and it has grown so much, it wrapped around my radial (sp) artery and is starting to affect the circulation in my hand, so I have to have surgery July 3rd, and it will take seven days with stitches for recovery and then ten more days in a wrist splint, so I am a bit ticked of course, this could have been dealt with much easier before now and it's just some other crap to deal with and obviously right now I'm just not good at dealing with anything, so this is my whining and I apologize ahead of time, but it's not safe for me to express it anywhere else.  Also I have always been scared of clowns, and I have nightmares about them.  So anyways I had a bad one yesterday and I was talking about it to my husband and he was being like "I just don't understand why you are scared of clowns" and kinda making fun of me and saying I needed to get over it and that really aggravated me, because I obviously am not proud of the fact I am scared of clowns and he didn't need to rub it in.